tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-41251654661901008572024-03-13T10:45:48.076-07:00My life in a nut shellMy journey through infertility, miscarriage, pregnancy and now PARENTHOOD! Amandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16700515921385894450noreply@blogger.comBlogger158125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4125165466190100857.post-86829438853649313722014-07-15T17:13:00.003-07:002014-07-15T17:16:11.172-07:00a scary time...Last Wed I was feeling horrible. Hubby had the stomach bug the weekend before and I thought I had it on Monday. H had been spared up till that moment. Hubby took h for a walk so I could get a bit of a rest. When he came home she threw up. And continued to throw up every 15-20 min for the next 12 hours. At 7 am the next morning I knew she needed more help then we could give her. Instead of sitting in emergency for God knows how long...I waited till her pediatrition opened and we went. We were there for just a few minutes and he sent us to the hospital. She was dehydrated and needed iv. We spent 3 days in the hospital. My baby was so sick. She had rotovirus. In addition to throwing up she also had horrific diarrhea. One day I had to change her poppy diaper every 15-20 min. The nurses were great and I was able to co-sleep with her and snuggle her all day and night. Throughout the whole ordeal I didnt think much about this pregnancy....just wishing and praying for my baby to get healthy again. It certainly put things into perspective. This was the 5th round of gastro-bug in our home since Dec. It has really freaked me out and I have cleaned everything in my house again with bleach. I pray its the end. We need a break. I never want to see my baby so sick again. Amandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16700515921385894450noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4125165466190100857.post-66164694717545038292014-06-20T17:04:00.001-07:002014-06-20T17:04:52.795-07:00bleeding againJust when I thought things were looking positive again. Just when I started to have hope - I start bleeding. Bright red blood again. I took progesterone this morning and it stopped....but it has started back up...and so have the cramps. I think this is it. I don't knowiif this pregnancy is viable. I also think this will be our last pregnancy. I can't do this anymore. I have a requisition for an ultrasound I need to book. Was waiting till school was out for the summer but maybe I will see about getting it done sooner. I am very sad :( this wasn't supposed to happen again. Not a third time. Amandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16700515921385894450noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4125165466190100857.post-68798113009005931132014-06-07T12:22:00.000-07:002014-06-07T12:22:45.202-07:00Not so finalSo last time I posted I was pretty certain I had a chemical pregnancy. The latest test I took was light. I was starting to spot and lost all symptoms very quickly. However, over the weekend, the spotting stopped and I was starting to feel crummy again so I took another test on Monday. Sure enough - the test line went positive within seconds of taking the test and it was darker than the control line. I was in fact pregnant. So last week I began to have hope. I started to dream once again of my future family. I went to my counselor and was pretty okay with how things were going. Then on Thurs I started to bleed. Not brown spotting - but bright red blood. It wasn't just when I wiped either - my undies were covered. I was devastated and figured that was it. Not only was I bleeding, but I had menstrual like cramps - specifically to one side. Friday I took the day off work and headed to emerg. Since I am not being seen by my fertility specialist, I am kinda in a no-man's land. A once infertile, with a history of repeat pregnancy loss. I know too much for my own good and I focus on all that could be rather than stick to the facts of what I know. My family Dr doesn't know much and to get tests done, I would be waiting days for results. So I sat in Emerg for 6 hours yesterday. I found out that I am pregnant. There is a sac in my uterus (no ectopic which I was really scared for) and my HCG levels are in line with someone being 5 weeks pregnant. They don't test for progesterone in Emerg - so now I have to beg my family Dr for progesterone supplements. That's the only thing I can think of that's causing the bleeding. I have been taking wild yam (a natural progesterone booster) and it seems to help a bit .. but I still bleed in the evenings. The ultrasound showed no bleeding in my uterus so for all they know, this could be a viable pregnancy (but once again...I know too much to know that it isn't that easy). I am supposed to connect with my family dr for another ultrasound in 1 -2 weeks time. I hate ultrasounds so much...I really didn't want to go through with all of that worry this time around. <br />
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Last night, not only did I start bleeding again (it had stopped by mid-morning) but I came down with a horrendous headache. The only time in any of my pregnancies I had a horrific headache like that was when I miscarried. So now I'm wondering if it is a sigh of what's to come. But, I'm trying to stay positive and know that headaches are common with pregnancy and just because you didn't have one with H, doesn't mean this pregnancy will end in miscarriage also. <br />
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I'm really, REALLY trying to keep my anxiety at bay. I guess I'm also trying to stay a bit more detached from the whole thing. My counselor summed it up pretty good - this time around I'm not fearful of weather or not I will be a mother, cause I am. I'm more afraid of my body failing me for the 3rd time. I want this baby...but there isn't so much riding on it as there was when I was pregnant with H. So we'll see. I am hoping and praying things turned out. <br />
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Please send positive sticky vibes my way I need all the support I can muster!Amandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16700515921385894450noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4125165466190100857.post-3989575721550167552014-05-30T17:38:00.001-07:002014-05-30T17:38:05.784-07:004 Pregnancies 1 BabyMy track record for getting pregnant and maintaining a pregnancy isn't too good. <br />
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I am currently awaiting my 3rd loss.<br />
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Last week, I was starting to feel odd. Extrememly tired. Ravenously hungry and nauseous if I didn't eat. Then my nipples started to scream in pain every time Hannah latched. I wasn't due for my period until today, but I couldn't resist. Last Sunday at 5 pm I took a test. It was positive. It wasn't even a faint line. It was very clearly a positive test. I was shocked and happy. At around 9 pm, I went to the washroom and there was some spotting. Hubby and I talked and I applied some wild yam cream on to help with progesterone support and decided since I wasn't being seen by the fertility clininc, that it would be too difficult to get progesterone cream. I also decided I didn't want all that added stress. I would let things happen the way they were going to happen. <br />
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Monday afternoon I took another test - positive.<br />
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Tues morning took another test - Very dark positive. The symptoms were pretty strong. I even posted a message on one of my mommy groups asking for advice on how to survive morning sickness when I can't snack on crackers as I need to take my thyroid meds. Of course, by publicly annoucment my pregnancy and symptoms, I jynxed everything. By Wed evening, my symptoms started to disappear one by one. First the boobs, then the nausea, then the exhaustion. By Thursday evening I had a sneaking suspicion what was happening. With the sudden drop of all symptoms, I felt a miscarriage was immenent.<br />
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Friday morning another test - faint line. Lighter than the Monday afternoon test. <br />
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I am having some mild cramps on my left side (the same as I had with H) but I'm a bit scared about an ectopic pregnancy. However, it has to be too early. This has to be a checmical pregnancy no?<br />
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I am so sad. I figured I had an ureaplasma and under-active thyroid with the first 2 losses. I have also had a healthy pregnancy. I figure my body should know what to do. <br />
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But ... I sit here now. Waiting .... hoping... my body knows what the fuck it needs to do to expel a pregnancy. Cause god knows it does a piss poor job of maintaining one. <br />
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Feel very sad....but so grateful I have Hannah to squeeze. It hurts. I'm mad. I'm sad. I wonder 'why me'. Why the fuck did I even get pregnant....complete with all the classic symptoms...only to loose it. But I do have Hannah. I have to stay strong for her. I have to be thankful I have her. <br />
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Why does making a family have to be so hard....when for so many others it is so fucking easy? Amandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16700515921385894450noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4125165466190100857.post-46382344784207309472014-05-10T17:58:00.002-07:002014-05-10T17:58:37.818-07:00Debbie DownerYou know that feeling when a good friendship seems to be slipping away - even though it feels like nothing you have done has changed? There is no longer conversation initiated by the friend, suggestions to get together are met with non-committal responses. There seems to be judgement in the tone in which you are being spoken to...<br />
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That's me right now with one of my friends. A good friend.<br />
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I know she is going through her own shit - a surprise second pregnancy while still dealing with the trauma from her first birth. Knowing a VBAC will be a fight given the short time between the 2 births. <br />
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I know that I have been extra 'needy' lately as I have gone through a lot of shit and a-ha moments. I also am one who turns to girl friends to vent/get things out and process. Hubby isn't really a talker and is to pragmatic and a realist to help me process the emotional stuff. <br />
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So what I assume has happened is that she is needing to distance herself from me as she deals with her own shit.<br />
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It makes me sad and angry. Sad that instead of distancnig herself, she doesn't turn to me for support. I have always offered. Sad that she likely feels she can't turn to me.<br />
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Angry cause I have done this to a good friendship. I have put my crap all on her....part of it was in hopes of maintaining the connection. You know the OMG - I am so miserable...my eye is swollen shut from pink eye - kind of posts. <br />
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I am angry I didn't censor myself.<br />
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I am angry I am such a Debbie Downer that I potentially ruined a great friendship.<br />
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This mom and I met when I was off on mat-leave. Our kids are just a few weeks apart. We went through the throws of nursing struggles, sleepless night and sleep regressions together. Now its like her first child doesn't exist (she never speaks about him) and that she is just focussing on getting her VBAC. <br />
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Why couldn't I have been more supportive? <br />
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Man - I feel like such a fucking idiot. <br />
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Sucks that those feelings of being unwanted, and being dismissed that occured when I was a child still resurface now as an adult. <br />
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I wish I could get a handle on these feelings. <br />
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Tomorrow is mother's day. I need to celebrate the fact that I am a mother to one amazing little girl! <br />
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Sorry for such a downer post - I needed a place to vent :)Amandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16700515921385894450noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4125165466190100857.post-60551807039026386722014-05-05T06:10:00.002-07:002014-05-05T06:29:37.359-07:0018 months todayMy dearest baby girl,<br />
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Today you are 18 months. One and a half years ago you came into this world giving us the most joy and fear new parents could handle.<br />
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Over the last 18 months, we have seen you grow and learn and develop new skills each day. You are simply amazing.<br />
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Things you love:<br />
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- Right now you LOVE being outside. You will spend your entire day outside playing in dirt, running after the dogs, 'helping' daddy in the garden. You are truly in your glory being out in nature. Ever time you see or hear a bird you let us know. You are very observant - much more than I am. I love being outside with you and letting the pace of the world slow down so I can enjoy the simple things in life with you.<br />
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- You love reading books. You call them 'cooks'. Sometimes you don't have the attention span to sit and enjoy a book, but most of the time we can share a quiet moment reading.<br />
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- You love 'funniest cat videos' on YouTube. This was a strange find - but putting on funny cat videos keeps your attention long enough for mommy or daddy to relax a moment. We don't have TV so we can't put on Tree House or any other children's programming. We've tried Netflix with sesame street or other children's shows but you loose focus after a minute. Put on funny cat videos on our phones and you are GLUED! You love cats! Its super cute.<br />
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-You love going to the sitters and playing with the kids. You call the sitter 'mommy'. I know you know who your mommy is and that its just a term you are using for someone who loves you and meets your needs. I actually am happy. You love and trust your sitter which puts my mind at ease since daddy and I both have to work.<br />
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- You LOVE your daddy. Right now you are definitely a daddy's girl. It's wonderful seeing the bond the two of you have.<br />
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- Blueberries and blackberries are your favourite food. Yesterday you ate a pint of each.<br />
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- You still LOVE your 'nursies' (nursing). Although somedays its tiring, I still love to nurse you. Especially when I can sneak in an unexpected nap by nursing you and having you calm down enough to sleep yourself. These naps mean I can't leave you when I wake up...but the cuddles are very enjoyable and wont be around forever.<br />
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Milestones:<br />
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- You learn new words each day and copy almost everything we say. When you aren't saying words we know you are talking in your own language. You sign to help us understand you and you make connections between actions and objects to help us as well. Its incredible. I've lost track on the words you say. You are right on course I believe. Right now you use the hard 'c' for a lot of things so socks is 'cocks', stuck is 'cuck' books is 'cooks'. Its quite amusing.<br />
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- You run everywhere. And you can walk backwards too - that is cute! You are also climbing on lots of things but it hasn't gotten to the annoying point yet. I'm sure that will come soon enough.<br />
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- You can identify objects in books and outside. You also love pointing out facial features while nursing. (This game was fun until you shared your pink eye with me this weekend. You didnt' have it very bad at all...but I got it REALLY bad. Pointing (sticking your finger in) your eye then mine was likely how you shared this little virus with me. Oh well. We've shared all other sickness this winter.)<br />
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When we took you to the Dr last week for your eye infection, you weighed a whopping 21 lbs 8 oz. Your metabolism is really high (likely cause you have never stopped moving). I wish I knew what I know now when you were born. You eat a lot and never gain weight. I wish I understood that you were going to be a slow gainer. Its just who you are. It would have saved me so much stress and heartache. I am so glad I continued nursing even with the slow weight gain. Some would have quite, and I wouldn't have blamed them. I wanted to quite daily for a few weeks as your weight would always be under what it 'should' have been. But we kept going and things got easier. Then you started solids at 6 months and ate as much as a 2 year old. And still you never put on weight. Now some days you eat more than me. Yet you still don't put on a lot of weight. You are our tiny girl - and that's okay!<br />
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Thank you for being so amazing. Thank you for choosing us to e your parents. We love you so much it hurts. Thanks for slowing life down a little and letting us into the wonder you see. <br />
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<br />Amandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16700515921385894450noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4125165466190100857.post-75837960961194925752014-05-01T07:23:00.001-07:002014-05-01T07:23:12.403-07:00Second Time Around....Is JUST as hard as the first. <br />
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When I was struggling with infertility before H - I thought that if I could only get pregnant and have a baby my life would be complete. It wouldn't matter if I could only have 1....I would be satisfied.<br />
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Funny how a really wonky cycle and no ovulation makes you realize the truth.<br />
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My family isn't complete with one. Maybe if I had my perfect birth without the trauma, I would be satisfied. I doubt it though. I need another baby. Hubby and I talk about another baby as if it is in our immediate future. Its not 'IF' we have another...its when. But then this 35 day cycle without ovulation comes along and I wonder.... maybe we should be talking in 'ifs' and not 'whens'.<br />
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I vowed I wouldn't get caught up in the mind-trap this time around. I would trust my body, trust the universe and succumb to what is meant for me and my family. I am really, really trying to do that. But its hard when people around you are making pregnancy announcements. When friends get pregnant while preventing. When I hear women talk about their charts and they are so predictable they can know 3 months in advance when they would be ovulating/menstruating. <br />
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<br />When I heard people talk about secondary infertility, a part of me thought them selfish. Thought that at least you HAVE a baby to love. Now I know. Even thought its only been technically 6 months since my cycle resumed - I know its not going to be easy. And the struggles we will face the second time around will be as real, as painful as the first. <br />
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When your family isn't complete - your family isn't complete. Yes I am BEYOND grateful for my daughter. I thank the universe daily for the wonderful amazing gift I was given. I am blessed with the ability to be a mother. I know that I am lucky. Maybe in time I will be able to accept that she maybe it. There are parts of me that are okay if that is our future...but right now, I'm not there yet fully.<br />
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Sometimes ignorance is bliss. Not knowing how difficult things can be maybe easier than knowing the struggles and heartache we may face.<br />
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But then again...maybe next month we'll be lucky? Today is May Day. The celebration of fertility. <br />
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Wishing everyone in the trenches a fertile May!Amandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16700515921385894450noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4125165466190100857.post-65323982024376462612014-04-29T05:27:00.002-07:002014-05-13T11:11:09.684-07:00This too shall pass. This post is for the Carnival of Natural Parents 'Ages and Stages' theme for the month of May.<br />
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As a first time mom, I never had perspective that 2nd timers have. I heard, so many times, that enjoy every moment, and 'this too shall pass'. But when you are in the throws of newborn/infant/toddler mayhem, you feel that this is it. This is what life is going to be like. You seek validation in what you are doing and look for advice on how to do things differently. You loose sleep. You can't function at times as the stress of it all gets so overwhelming.<br />
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But the truth is, 'they' are right. This too shall pass.<br />
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My daughter is now 18 months and so many things have changed. Sleep has been the biggest change. From 4-14 months, my daughter woke every 2 hours and would often sleep latched on most of the night. Now, she sleeps in her own room and will go to bed for my husband without any fussing and will sleep 9 or 10 hours. This has been a huge change, and she did it all on her own without us having to do any formal sleep training. (You can find more about our sleep journey <a href="http://amanda-mylifeinanutshell.blogspot.ca/2014/04/the-journey-from-bed-sharing-to.html">here</a>).<br />
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Eating is another area where if you are patient enough, things find their way of working out. H was a super eater when we first started solids. Then, around a year she became super picky and often wouldn't eat more than a few bites. Now, she eats pretty well and will often have 1 meal where she eats a huge amount of food. It all balances out.<br />
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I am currently 'waiting out' the constant nursing a toddler stage. I know that teething is wrecking havoc on her and comfort nursing in the mornings and evenings, although tiring, gives her the comfort and reassurance she needs to know everything is alright. <br />
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Our culture is so consumed with pushing children to grow faster than they are ready. If we just take a breath and have patience through the difficult stages (even if they seem to go on forever), babies do grow. They know what they need and will inevitably become more independent.<br />
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Our culture doesn't support new mother's the way it should. We don't have the large network of female relatives that have raised babies and teach us how to raise ours instinctively. We need to actively seek out connection through on-line groups, or real-life mothering groups. It takes work and when you feel like your drowning, it hard to reach for the safety vest.<br />
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I wish I had done things differently and listen to my gut and not worry so much. However, I can't change the past. As my daughter grows and changes through the different stages, I too am growing as a mother along with her. I am learning to listen to her and respect her needs. Most importantly, I am learning to trust her.<br />
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Please take time to read the submissions by the other carnival participants:<br />
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<li><b><a href="http://lauriehollmanphd.com/2014/05/three-year-olds-standup/" target="_blank">When Three-Year-Olds Stand Up For Themselves</a></b> — Parenting Expert Laurie Hollman, Ph.D. at her blog, <b>Parental Intelligence</b>, enjoys the stage when three-year-olds dramatically wow their parents with their strong sense of self.</li>
<li><b><a href="http://amanda-mylifeinanutshell.blogspot.ca/2014/04/this-too-shall-pass.html" target="_blank">This too shall pass</a></b> — In the beginning, everything seems so overwhelming. Amanda at <b>My Life in a Nutshell</b> looks at the stages of the first 1.5 years of her daughter's life and explains how nothing is ever static and everything changes - the good and the bad. </li>
<li><b><a href="http://www.hybridrastamama.com/2014/05/age-5-really-golden-period.html" target="_blank">Age 5 – Is It Really A Golden Period? </a></b> — Jennifer at <b>Hybrid Rasta Mama</b> looks at the developmental norms for the five-year-old set and muses over if this age really is the 'golden period.'</li>
<li><b><a href="http://www.abejero.net/archives/3979" target="_blank">How much do you explain to your preschooler when crime touches close to home?</a></b> — When tragedy strikes someone your preschooler knows, Nathalie at <b>Kampuchea Crossings</b> wonders how parents can best help young children cope.</li>
<li><b><a href="http://thatmamagretchen.com/2014/05/thoughts-on-toddlerwearing.html" target="_blank">Thoughts on Toddlerwearing</a></b> — <b>That Mama Gretchen</b>'s babywearing days are over, we're living it up in the toddlerwearing days now!</li>
<li><b><a href="http://wp.me/p2XHwJ-jk" target="_blank">Parenting Challenges—Almost a man</a></b> — Survivor at <b>Surviving Mexico</b> talks about leaving childhood behind as her son turns 12.</li>
<li><b><a href="http://equippedfamily.com/2014/05/04/how-child-development-works-competence-builds-competence/" target="_blank">How Child Development Works - Competence Builds Competences</a></b> — Debbie at <b>Equipped Family</b> shares how each stage of childhood builds on the next. Focus on doing the current stage reasonably well and success will breed success!</li>
<li><b><a href="http://www.ourmindfullife.com/making-space/" target="_blank">Making Space</a></b> — Kellie at <b>Our Mindful Life</b> is adjusting her thinking and making room for her babies to stay near her.</li>
<li><b><a href="http://codenamemama.com/2014/05/13/best-parenting-resources-for-parents-of-toddlers" target="_blank">The Best Parenting Resources for Parents of Toddlers</a></b> — Toddlers can be so challenging. Not only are they learning how to exert their independence, but they simply do not have the developmental ability to be calm and logical when they are frustrated. It's the nature of the beast. I mean … the toddler. Here are Dionna at <b>Code Name: Mama</b>'s favorite books and articles about parenting a toddler.</li>
<li><b><a href="http://naturalparentsnetwork.com/the-fab-five-stages-so-far/" target="_blank">The Fab Five Stages so Far</a></b> — Laura from <b>Pug in the Kitchen</b> couldn't choose just one stage for this carnival and is sharing her top five favorite stages in the young lives of her son and daughter at <b>Natural Parents Network</b>.</li>
<li><b><a href="http://www.hobomama.com/2014/05/the-best-parts-of-ages-0-6.html" target="_blank">The best parts of ages 0-6</a></b> — Lauren at <b>Hobo Mama</b> gives a breakdown of what to expect and what to cherish in each year.</li>
<li><b><a href="http://pandamoly.blogspot.com/2014/05/lessons-from-parenting-three-year-old.html" target="_blank">Lessons from Parenting a Three-Year-Old</a></b> — Ana and Niko at <b>Panda & Ananaso</b> are quickly approaching the end of an era — toddlerhood. She shares some of her thoughts on the last two years and some tips on parenting through a time rife with change.</li>
<li><b><a href="http://www.mommajorje.com/2014/05/feeling-needed.html" target="_blank">Feeling Needed</a></b> — Jorje of <b>Momma Jorje</b> ponders which developmental stage is her favorite and why. She bares it for us, seemingly without fear of judgment. You might be surprised by her answer!</li>
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<!-- END BOTTOM STRAIGHT LIST CODE -->Amandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16700515921385894450noreply@blogger.com6tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4125165466190100857.post-21131978993366505462014-04-26T16:46:00.002-07:002014-04-26T16:46:18.469-07:00well it startsToday is cd 29. I haven't had any signs of af starting...but also had no signs of ovulation . Since getting my period back, my cycles have been 26-28 days. My boobs usually hurt like hell before af comes when I nurse...but they feel normal. I know I can't be pregnant cause hubby and I have hardly dtd this month with sickness etc. Also I know my cycle delay is likely cause I took domperidone a few times when h was sick and nursing non-stop<br />
However I can't help but think maybe I am. Maybe I could be. Maybe I wont have to deal with months and months of heartache. I don't want to take a test. I would rather just get afthen have my heart broken seeing 1 red line. Guess I will just have to wait this out.Amandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16700515921385894450noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4125165466190100857.post-48747019446925142222014-04-17T06:59:00.001-07:002014-04-17T07:23:17.141-07:00The journey from bed-sharing to independent sleepSleep. The topic that will bring out the claws in with many moms. The topic everyone...and I mean EVERYONE has an opinion that will try and sway you into believe is the right way to do things. An area of my life I have been deprived of since H was born. One of reasons I developed post-partum anxiety.<br />
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First off...I think every new parent is completely ignorant to how much sleep you will loose when you have a baby. No one tells you about things like 4, 8, 12, 18 month sleep regressions. I thought that once my child started giving me longer stretches at night, that would last forever. Boy was I wrong.<br />
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We started off by having H sleep in her bassinet. She and I would begin our night by falling asleep together, her nursing. Once she was good and asleep, hubby would move her into her bassinet. By 4 weeks, H was giving me 6-8 hour stretches. At 4 months, she was waking every 2 hours or less. That lasted until she was 14 months old. To survive the 4 month sleep regression, I brought H into my bed. Some nights she would sleep a few hours in her own sleeping space, and others she would sleep the entire night latched on. This regression caused me so much turmoil. I felt I HAD to do something. I felt I was failing her, setting her up for a lifetime of bad sleep if I didn't sleep train. I read TOO MUCH. It was very overwhelming. I didn't know what to do. We already knew she was a horrible napper, needing to be bounced and worn for her to nap....I couldn't handle having a bad night sleeper too. I cried. ALL THE TIME. I couldn't eat. We gave her a bottle of formula at night to ensure she wasn't hungry. We did white noise and lavander and everything else you could imagine. I stopped eating dairy and wheat. NOTHING WORKED. I thought the only thing we had to do was let her cry it out. I blogged about it. I emailed others who did it. But the thought of letting her cry made me sick. Hubby refused to do it. We argued about it. Our world was focused and centered around sleep. We even hired sleep consultant who gave us an in depth plan. We followed the plan and even though we had minimal success early on, by 2 weeks, I was waking up every 30 minutes with her and it was falling apart. Nothing worked. <br />
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It wasn't until I became involved with Le Leche league and started to attend mother's meetings, that I started to learn what normal infant sleep was all about. I learned that my daughter wasn't going to always need me. That before 18 months, there is NOTHING you can do that can screw up a baby's sleep. Crutches are things people use who need help with walking. Babies don't develop crutches for sleep...or if they do it wont be forever. I learned the dangers of letting your child cry it out. I read about attachment theory and how it is critical to develop a strong bond between parent and child. I read about other cultures and what is normative and how we, in the west are 'abnormal' in how we treat infants. I found my tribe for support and I slowly, became confident in my parenting choices. This wasn't easy. H was over a year old, before I can say I was truly confident in how we were dealing with sleep situation. I went back to work, and H was still nursing all night long. I would go to bed with her and stay in bed until she woke up. I never had time for myself. It was a long, hard haul.<br />
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Once H started daycare, she learned how to put herself to sleep other than nursing. In less than 2 weeks, she went from needing to be bounced and worn to sleep, to sleeping for 2 hours on her own. She has an amazing care provider and although there was some tears, she wasn't left alone to cry. She realized since mommy and daddy weren't around, she would need to find comfort in another way. We didn't have that same success at home. At 14 months, hubby and I were supposed to go to a concert so he needed to learn how to put her to sleep so he could tell his mom what to do. In 3 nights, she went from needing to nurse all night to sleep, to putting herself to sleep and staying asleep for long stretches. If she did wake, hubby just needed to give her some water and she would go back to sleep for him. We had reached an amazing milestone and we did it without letting her cry a single tear alone. She did it because she was comfortable and confident we would be with her. She was still sleeping in our room, but she was sleeping. I would sleep in the spare room as my presence (milk) would wake her often. The two of them had a good thing going.<br />
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Since she was sleeping so soundly in our room - but waking every morning with his alarm, we felt that it was time for her to move to her own room. Last night, H slept 9 hours without waking in her own room. It took her a LONG time to fall asleep - as she has never slept in her room before. She wasn't secure or comfortable to just lie down and be tucked in and hubby say goodnight. Hubby needed to rock her for a few minutes and lie her down to sleep. But she stayed asleep. She did wake up early and then came into bed with me. But it was a start. We are making progress. There maybe set backs, but she has made a huge leap in her independent sleep journey. She knows we are there for her and she felt comfortable to sleep alone. She slept for 9 hours last night...all by herself. She woke and stirred a few times, but quickly put herself back to sleep. <br />
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I am not writing this to say I'm better than those who sleep train. Some sleep train as its the best for their family. Some do it as sleep deprivation has caused such sever PPD that it is necessary for survival. Some tried and it only took 1 night of a few minutes of crying and your baby slept. Some of you will be reading this and will relate to how I felt as you too felt pressured. I am not writing to guilt anyone. Everyone has a right to parent the way that they feel is best. 2 people can love their children equally but parent differently. I am an advocate for Attachment based parenting because I have read the research. It is what works for me. I am not going to do what others did to me and condemn different parenting styles. <br />
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I'm writing this for those who feel they can't sleep train. For those who feel they must do something or else they will be nursing their child to sleep forever. For those with babies who wont let them sleep train without hours, and hours and hours of crying like H would have given us. For those who have tried everything and think their child will never sleep. Yes, we actively sought out change and had hubby take over. This was crucial to our success. But we never left her to cry it out. Every fiber of our beings couldn't let H cry. Not being able to let her cry made me feel weak, and a horrible parent. It wasn't until I found support otherwise that I realized I wasn't weak. I needed to read these types of success stories early on. But all I found were stories of cry-it-out success.<br />
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One of the best things about being a breast feeding momma, is the ability to comfort my child on my breast. However, for some babies, that can also be horrible for the momma as nursing was the ONLY way to comfort H. I felt I had to break this connection to get more than 2 hours of sleep. Through patience and gentle guidance, we were able to extend the need for H to nurse without causing her any stress. We didn't break the connection, just like we didn't break the connection when I returned to work. It is possible. Your baby is smart and KNOWS what it needs. Once I realized that I just need to listen to my baby and forget about what others would say or think of me, the easier it got. We knew when she was ready for a change and she showed us we were right.<br />
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I also realized that being unconventional is necessary to survival. H used to sleep latched-on all night, we currently have wall-to-wall bed. Hubby and I slept in separate rooms for over a year. Yes this is all unconventional - but all temporary. Babies change - yes there will be set-backs, but once a skill is learned it wont be forgotten.<br />
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For those momma's in sleep deprivation land, take a deep breath. Relax. It will get better. Change your attitude around sleep and things will get easier. Babies wake. Babies need momma. Don't listen to what your mom, neighbour, co-worker is telling you. Babies don't know how to manipulate. They only know what they need. There are no wants this young. Change your expectations and it will get easier. LISTEN TO YOUR INSTINCTS. You have them for a reason and they will never lead you astray. It is hard. Sleep deprivation - especially when working - is hard. Your child will let you know when he/she is capable of change. Find support. Enjoy the snuggles while you can :) Amandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16700515921385894450noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4125165466190100857.post-78306930049141288612014-04-15T06:26:00.002-07:002014-04-15T06:26:34.919-07:00Finding a work/life balance ... for nowI took almost 3 weeks off work to get over the nasty gastro-bug H and I had, and a chest/sinus cold that knocked me out. I also took that time to try and get a handle on my depression and anxiety. I am now back to work 2/3. That means I only teach in the afternoons but need to be at work by 11. Depending on how the morning goes, I drop H off at the sitters between 7:30 and 8 or if she is sleeping in, after 9:30, and then I go home and veg. I still am suffering from mild insomnia, so I wish I could sleep...but I use that time in the morning to get some chores done (laundry usually), plan for dinner or put dinner in the crock-pot and watch tv, exercise or just veg in bed. This is me time...and although I feel like I should be more productive, I'm perfectly happy just relaxing. I'm not going to lie, I love this new schedule. I always said I wanted to go back to work 2/3 but talked myself out of it saying the money is more important. Now, since I have an anxiety disorder, I'm off that 1/3 on medical so I'm still getting paid. This will continue until the end of the school year and then I guess I have to evaluate if I want to go on a 1/3 leave for Sept. or try and go back full-time. Having this extra time in the mornings has allowed me to slow down and breathe. I'm no longer rushing around all the time trying to figure out how to cram everything i need to get done in. I am able to shower before work - which seems miniscule, but is HUGE for me. <br />
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I love my mornings with H and if she isn't up at the crack of dawn and wants to sleep a little longer, I love having our morning cuddles. When I was off sick, I would often fall asleep myself. But now I'm up with her around 5 am and can't sleep. However, I now longer have to worry about getting out of bed and having to rush around to get ready for work. I usually lie there and breathe, try and relax and just let my mind wander. <br />
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Maybe this part-time thing is what I need. Who knows where the fall will bring but I will enjoy every moment I have now! Amandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16700515921385894450noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4125165466190100857.post-31101593427563467992014-03-31T18:28:00.002-07:002014-03-31T18:28:39.055-07:00When depression rears its ugly head. Well, I left off saying that Hubby and I were sick after H was up all night puking. I thought the saga would end there. Turns out, I was wrong. I ended up needing to go to the Emergency Room as it felt like my heart was beating out of my chest and I found it hard to breathe. These feelings lasted over 24 hours before I went. Then, H woke up again and started puking. After I thought we were all getting well. Her second round of the flu did me in. The card-house collapsed and I was drowning in anxiety and depression. I couldn't handle having my baby sick for one more night. I couldn't handle having to take another day off work and worry about how I was going to cope with working and a sick baby. All these negative emotions came running back. <br />
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I took H to the Dr and while I was there, I broke down. H had the stomach bug...nothing more. I was signed off work for 3 weeks for stress leave. I couldn't cope. <br />
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I went and saw a counsellor and he made me answer 20 questions. Apparently through these questions, he was able to identify that I was experiencing Sever Depression and Sever Anxiety. The anxiety I understood. I was a wreck dealing with H and everything we have gone through this winter...but the depression shocked me. He explained that the way the chemicals in your brain work, is that if you have EVER been in a depressed state, you will go back to that state when stressed. Each time you go back, the deeper the depression. He says unless you treat the chemical imbalance, you wont be able to ever get rid of the depression. He is also very much pro-natural supplements vs medications. Since I am still nursing, I fear taking drugs as he said a lot of the drugs don't work for some people so it really is a crap shoot finding the right drug at the right dose. He suggested I take amino-acids and cod-liver oil as well as beta blockers to help bring me out. <br />
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Funny what happens when the cards come crashing down. Now, EVERYTHING is coming back up. All the feelings associated wiht the miscarriages, the infertility, the abuse from my childhood. Everything. I have realized that I need to change. I can't continue to go on in life the way I have been living as I am living on adrenaline and not taking each moment as it comes. My immune system is failing me as I am so stressed. My family is suffering, my job is suffering and my health is suffering. I am too young and have too much at steak to not take this as a wake-up call. <br />
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While off, I'm trying to figure out ways to cope. I'm trying to not allow negative feelings and emotions to consume me. I want to be happy for me AND for H. <br />
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Being a working momma is hard. Totally wish I had the ability to stay home with her. Amandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16700515921385894450noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4125165466190100857.post-65559803780119646302014-03-19T17:38:00.002-07:002014-03-19T17:38:21.327-07:00This horrible winter and sicknessI'm DONE with this winter. I'm DONE with sickness. My family and I have been SO SICK this winter that I'm starting to have panic attacks waiting for the next person (usually H) to get sick. <br />
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Here is the run-down:<br />
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Oct- H started daycare and developed a cold. I soon got same cold. Took her to Dr's and it was just a horrible cough. Spent many nights my first week back at work holding her upright so we could breathe and sleep.<br />
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Oct - I developed a sever blocked duct and started to get a fever. Needed a day off to rest and seek therapeutic ultrasound to help dissolve block. ALSO battling a horrible cold. <br />
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End of Nov/Early Dec - I start suffering from SEVER insomnia. Take a day off work to sleep as I haven't slept in days. That night, H and I BOTH come down with stomach bug. Both of us puking (and me the 'other thing') all night long. Worst night ever. 3 days later, H has to go to emerg for dehydration. Next day we are back at Dr and she is diagnosed with double ear infection. Brutal.<br />
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End of Jan/ First week of Feb - H starts coming down with cold. Take her to Dr's and she is diagnosed with Croup. Figure we would just wait it out. 4 days later, she still has on-going fever so we take her back...fluid in the lungs and another double ear infection. Another round of antibiotics. 1 week after, I come down with serious sinus cold. <br />
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Beginning of March - another cold with horrible cough. Luckily it doesn't progress into anything<br />
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Mid March - H wakes up puking. I wake up and faint 3 times, while hubby is dealing with screaming, pukey baby...I'm passing out and going unconcious. I figure it was a combination of low-blood pressure, waking up too quickly, the 3 drinks I had (first time in 2 years) 4 hours prior and not allowing myself to fully recover the first time I pass out so I go on to pass out 2 more times. 3 days after, I come down with stomach bug and *void* from both ends all night and the next morning. This is where we stand now. Hubby stayed home today too cause he was feeling quite nauseous but hasn't actually gotten sick. I am STILL feeling like crap 2 days later. I am terrified H is going to get sick again...so much so that I wonder if some of my feeling ill in my tummy is due to me worrying about her getting sick.<br />
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We have THE BEST sitter, and we can send her when she isn't her best...but I have taken quite a few days off work cause I have had to stay home with her. Luckily, (or unluckily) I was also sick so I wasn't lieing (we aren't allowed to stay home with our children who are sick). <br />
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I can't take much more. I have 15 more weeks left of work till summer vacation. I feel like I am so burned out from balancing being a mommy and a teacher. I am failing at both. I don't know how anyone else does it. We eat fairly good. We try to use alternative supplements to help boost immune systems. I'm still nursing...so why is she getting so sick? I'm not the only one who has had a winter like mine. Many of my facebook feeds are of friends battling yet another illness or two in their families. It doesn't help that I work with special needs students so I'm bringing home a lot of 'junk' and DH works in waste water so he is literally bringing home shit some days... It just sucks. Who gets the stomach bug 2 x in one season??? Today I bleached all surfaces of my home in hopes to get rid of any germs. We've also had the windows open for brief periods of time a couple days this past week...so hopefully when the weather is nicer we can open the windows more and get fresh air in the home and help us get healthy!<br />
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Has anyone else had a rough winter? What have you done to stay healthy? Amandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16700515921385894450noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4125165466190100857.post-15037576029812913732014-03-03T17:45:00.001-08:002014-03-03T17:45:17.787-08:00Finding a balanceNow that H is finally sleeping better (usually sleeps from 8-4:30/5 am and then goes back to sleep till 6:30/7) I have time for myself. With this 'free time', I'm finding it hard to find a balance for all the things I want to do, and all the things I need to do, plus spend time with hubby. <br />
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My job is very demanding. My toddler is very demanding. I wake up and take care of her, then after I drop her off I have a 20 min reprieve as I drive to work to only deal with people all day long needing the utmost care and attention. I then get another 20 min break as I drive home (with the winter we have had/having the drive isn't a break as its usually a snow-covered/drifty drive) and then I am momma to my toddler until she goes to bed. Once I get in the door, she demands to nurse. This nursing session is my favourite as its a wonderful way to reconnect after a day apart. But, it also means that as soon as I get home I am glued to her for at least half an hour. Once she lets me free, I have to make dinner, clean-up from dinner, make lunches for hubby and I and bathe her. All the while dealing with her shannanigans - like tonight where she feels the ground is on fire and filled with man-eating spiders and refuses to let me put her down even for a second to pee. Hubby helps where he can (makes dinner usually) but she doesn't want anything to do with him some nights. So by 7:30 when she goes to bed, I am wiped. I shower in the evenings so I don't have to worry about it in the morning, and usually that's the first time all day where I can unwind and relax. Now if hubby and I want to have intimacy time (and since we are officially TTC again we aim to do this 3-5x a week...but we aren't likely reaching our goals) this cuts into my evening and desire to veg. Since H wakes up between 4:30 and 5 - I usually wake up at that time and can't fall asleep. My insomnia is still pretty bad and if I wake up that early I'm usually up for the day. So by 9:00 I'm exhausted and needing to sleep myself. <br />
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So where do you find time for:<br />
-exercise? I NEED to get into an exercise regime. I miss it. I need it for my emotional health. I need it cause I've gained weight from stress eating. I need it to feel good about myself. I need it to help me sleep. But when do I go? We have a bike in our basement to use, but I find it hard to even go on that when H clings to me for dear life when I'm on it. I also can't work out after she goes to bed as its too late for me. <br />
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-reading/watching tv: I love me a good tv veg session. This is one of the few ways I can turn off my brain and just relax. Once again...given my job I need this decompression .. but I'm finding it hard.<br />
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- see friends -<br />
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I love my daughter. I love my husband...but right now my momma duties and wifely duties are trumping my own desires. I also can't sacrifice sleep for my own needs as I can't function without sleep. <br />
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How does everyone else manage? I'm blessed that hubby and I are both home by 4 or 4:30 - so we have more 'free' time in the evenings than most. Yet I'm still feeling like I need more time to get everything in. <br />
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<br />Amandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16700515921385894450noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4125165466190100857.post-45646648208986896832014-01-23T17:29:00.001-08:002014-01-23T17:29:34.145-08:00The working mommaFirst off, I have to say that living in Canada we are SO LUCKY to be able to take 1 year off of maternity leave and receive a partial income for that year. For mommas in the U.S and other countries that aren't so fortunate, I have no idea how you cope! <br />
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Returning to work has been hard! I find the demands of my job and the demands of being a mother (and a wife) so difficult to juggle. Time for myself is very limited and sleep is basically unheard of. <br />
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Being a nursing mother returning to work has been easier than I anticipated. About 2 weeks into work I didn't pump on my lunch (I wasn't pumping for milk to feed...but just to comfort as H wouldn't drink BM from a bottle or cup. I ended up donating over 100 oz to a momma in need as it would have gone to waste otherwise. Pretty proud of that considering I struggled with low supply for so long), and I forgot to 'check' the girls to see if they were ok. When I did check, I had a clogged duct. It was brutal! I ended up taking a day off as I came down with a nasty cold too and went to a physio-therapist to receive therapeutic ultrasound on the clog. Luckily it drained and haven't had one since. *knock on wood* I've since given up that pumping session and now I can go the entire day without needing to express. It saddens me some as my supply isn't as plentiful as it once was, but I was assured last night by my LLL leaders that my body/boobs know what they are doing!<br />
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Coming home is an interesting endevour. H can be happily playing with her daddy and as soon as I walk in the door, she starts crying and whining until we nurse. The nursing session is a long one and she has a rather long period of cranky/clingyness before she starts playing again. I hate this. I wish she didn't have to make up for lost time. However, we are very fortunate to have an amazing sitter who loves H and H loves going to see her. <br />
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Food and cooking and cleaning have been a battle. I hate cooking. I wasn't a very good stay at home wife for the year I was off and didn't prepare meals on a regular basis. Now, it is a struggle. I try to ensure there is meat out each night so that we can do something for dinner. However we are still eating take-out on a regular basis. I wish we were more organized...but that just isn't the case. Many nights it isn't the cooking that is so daunting...but the cleanup. <br />
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H has been falling asleep on her own when daddy puts her to sleep. She still isn't sleeping through the entire night, but it has given me a new perspective. It is amazing to have a few hours to myself at night and be able to spend time with hubby. Unfortunately my insomnia has been HORRIFIC. Since returning to work I have had so little sleep and I think its because of the stress of work keeping me awake at night cause many times it isn't the baby. <br />
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Overall, we are coping. I wish I had heard more stories from people who returned to work when there babies were a bit older and how they coped. I miss being off SO MUCH. Hubby and I are officially in TTC land once again. I'm trying not to be obsessive - but its hard to not go down that road. Since I'm up for a lot of the night, I'm finding it hard to temp - but I hope to try again next month. Ideally we'd like to be pregnant in May/June. But we are trying now cause it took us awhile the last time around so we figure we wont waste any time! LOLAmandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16700515921385894450noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4125165466190100857.post-20783078801052052632014-01-11T16:53:00.004-08:002014-01-11T16:53:47.588-08:00Back in the game2 days ago AF came back. Last time she came to visit, was January 2012. 2 years without worrying about my cycles. 2 years of forgetting I was an infertile and all the emotional baggage that came along with that. A few weeks ago I noticed a change in my CM and hubby and I DTD a number of times (we haven't used protection since having DD). Over the holidays my nipples were so sore whenever DD nursed, I was exhausted and cranky. I thought for sure I was pregnant. So...there I was taking a HPT and thinking maybe, just maybe we wouldn't have to worry about fertility problems. Atlas, AF came. I am happy with her arrival as I was starting to wonder if I would be one of those women that would never get her cycle while nursing. Now that she is here (with a vengeance I may add) I know my body is ready to conceive. I am not ready to be pregnant yet. I really don't want another late fall baby. Nov/Dec is the worst time of year for me with my seasonal depression. Having a baby during that time was rough. Going back to work during that time was rough. I would really love to have an early spring baby. .. or even late Feb. Ideally we would love to get pregnant again in June. However...we all know how much those plans pan out...so each month will be an opportunity to try. I am meeting with a fertility counselor next week who can help teach me how to chart my cycles while nursing (as it is a bit different given I'm up so many times a night). Hopefully with her help, I'll be able to relax and learn my body and learn when I ovulate and when a good time to conceive. <br />
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Its funny - reading blogs lately. Many fellow momma's who had dragon babies are back in the game too (or planning on being back in it) I guess that's what happens when your baby is a year. You think about when number 2 will come. Although I am so blessed to have H, I really feel my family is not yet complete. I really want another baby on so many levels. I pray that the second time will be MUCH easier and less stressful than the first.<br />
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On another note - in order to conceive...hubby and I need to be able to DTD on a regular basis. Last Friday I went out for dinner with a friend and told him he HAD to put DD to bed. Up until last Fri, I had gone to bed with her every night of her life for 14 months. I nursed her to sleep and nursed her back down every time she woke (which ranged from 5-20 times a night). Well he was able to put her to sleep with minimal fussing. It worked so well he did it again .. and again..and again. It is now his job to put her to sleep as he is able to read her a story, lay her on the bed say goodnight shut the light off and leave and she falls asleep on her own. It is a miracle. This would NOT happen with me at all! She still wakes... A LOT. But he is able to put her back to sleep quite easily. At 2am I usually take over so that he can get some uninterrupted sleep before work. We are hoping that by him doing many of the early night wake-ups (he just goes to her, lays her back down and comforts her by laying next to her) she will wake less. So far, we are making progress! We are still bed sharing...and we hope in the next few months to have her transfer from the king bed in our room, to the single bed attached to the king (yes we have wall-to-wall bed). That way hubby and I can share the king and she can have her own space. Neither one of us really care if she is in our room or not. We love having a family bed. Its amazing this transformation has occurred the week I get my cycle back as it proves that we are ready to start thinking about bringing another person into our family. He putting her to sleep has changed my life and has changed our marriage. I will never regret the time I spent with my daughter nursing her and making sure felt secure enough to sleep. But I am glad she is giving us freedom in the evenings without her needing us. <br />
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I hope that this space remains a space I can share my thoughts and feelings...but I don't want it to become a negative space for me to obsess about every little thing. I am trying to still enjoy every moment with my daughter and count my blessings for having her in my life. I don't want to dismiss everything she is going through and learning just cause I am obsessing over becoming pregnant again. Toddlers are hard (or so I am told). Hubby and I have vowed to continue on with our AP style parenting and treat her with dignity and respect - even when she is screaming on the floor in a full-blown tantrum. She needs us to help her understand her feelings and understand boundaries. We can't be too preoccupied with fertility or lack there of. <br />
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<br />Amandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16700515921385894450noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4125165466190100857.post-47530496410371080842013-12-23T10:39:00.001-08:002013-12-23T10:39:25.590-08:00Another Season...another postWow. I guess I am one of them. One of those people who finally has a baby and then drops off the blogging earth. I am ashamed. However, life has been busy!<br />
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My baby girl is now 13 months old. Over a year has gone by and I can honestly say I am still falling in love with this wonderful miracle. She is my everything. She is walking and using sign language to communicate. Life is simply amazing.<br />
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Working and being a momma has been tough. 2 weeks ago H and I came down with the stomach flu that kept us both up all night puking. She then became dehydrated and needed to go to the hospital for rehydrating. Then she had a double ear infection. This all occurred while I was working and still feeling crummy myself. We have an AMAZING sitter and we were blessed we could still send H when she wasn't feeling herself. Working and having a sick baby is the hardest thing in the world. I am not sure how mommas find the balance...but I will try. I need to put my family first and not worry so much about my students or what my administration will say. This is a new year's resolution of mine.<br />
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We are still very much AP parents. Still bed-sharing, nursing on demand and loving every minute of it. I would LOVE to get more sleep at night...however I know that she wont be this needy for ever and I will one day miss on the night cuddles. She will tell me when she is ready to move on. We saw some pretty amazing progress, and then she got sick and has regressed. However now that she is eating more again, I am hopeful that her sleeping will turn around. <br />
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I have so many posts I want to write about. I also resolve to spend more time doing things I enjoy - such as writing - in the New Year. <br />
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Wishing everyone who still cares enough to read this post, a wonderful holiday! Here's a recent pic of my peanut! Love her so much!<br />
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<br />Amandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16700515921385894450noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4125165466190100857.post-40031487564914850052013-10-10T07:37:00.001-07:002013-10-10T07:37:04.961-07:00As seasons changeIt's hard to believe my last post was the first day of summer and now we are into fall. These last couple of months have been busy! H is 11 months old and I return to work on Tuesday. Having this year off with my daughter has been the greatest, most rewarding, most stressful and full of anxiety year of my life. I am so sad to have to leave her and miss all the wonderful things she will do in my absence. <br />
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I'll give a quick update on the most important things:<br />
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- sleep: ugh. I wish things were better on this front. I spent 8 weeks this summer trying to 'train' her to sleep in her crib on her own. We had about a week of success (although she still woke every sleep cycle and needed a little shushing to get back to sleep) but then it went downhill. She would scream and cry for hours until I nursed her back to sleep as well as waking ever 45 minutes even if she put herself to sleep. I was a zombie. I was more tired and getting so sick from the CONSTANT night wakings. One night hubby was on baby duty and tried to get her to sleep on her own, he couldn't stand it and gave her back to me to lay in bed beside me. We haven't looked back. We realized that she simply isn't ready for sleeping independent of us. We were very consistent and very diligent and tried many things over those 8 weeks. Everyone said it would get better...it never did. We have since done an extensive amount of research and we realize how much sleep training doesn't fit with our family. As much as I would like my nights free to sleep alone, I do cherish my cuddles. Sleep will come when she is ready. Until then I will meet her needs and do what is needed to ensure we both get the most amount of sleep possible.<br />
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- Feeding: She still nurses A TON at night and a few times during the day. While she is at the sitters, I express to comfort but I wont have time to pump at work. I am going to let her nurse till she is at least 2 and maybe older. Beauty of it all is I still haven't regained my cycle! Period free since Feb. 2012! Loving that! I think once I go back to work and don't have her nursing for such long periods during the day my cycle will return. H loves to eat and is a good eater. She pretty much eats what we eat. She eats a TON and stil hasn't gained weight. All that stress I put on myself when she was an infant. Worrying and worrying that she wasn't gaining like she should and that I didn't have enough milk to feed her...I wish I could have just relaxed. Since 6 months she has eaten solids like a champ. I think the first time we fed her she devoured an entire avacado, sweet potato and fruit. AND she still nurses. At 10 months she still hadn't doubled her birth-weight. I figure that her metabolism is so high and she never stops moving that she burns more calories then she consumes! She is growing and happy! I wish I would have realized that earlier. I would have saved myself a lot of worry. She is currently off the charts for weight. Oh well! <br />
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-Gross Motor: H is a crawling machine and walks along furniture. She loves her walking toys but isn't stable enough yet to stand or walk by herself. I'm okay with that! I am not really ready for a walker!<br />
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-Day care transition: We had a sitter lined up since Jan. When we met with her in August things didn't go to well and once she realized H's needs (specifically around sleep and separation) she felt she couldn't take care of her. We were pretty stressed, but found an amazing sitter who H loves. For the baby that wouldn't allow ANYONE (including grandparents) to hold her for any length of time and would scream if she were left alone with anyone but Hubby or myself, she is doing fantastic at the sitters. She is so happy to go and is happy when I pick her up. She has been for many half-days and yesterday was her first full-day. The sitter even got her down for a (albeit small) nap! We are very happy!<br />
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I never thought my daughter would become independent or secure. She had such separation anxiety I never visioned the day I would be able to leave her with someone else happy. She surprises me everyday. Attachment Parenting is hard. There are many days/weeks/months you don't see your rewards. I know that things may get difficult again before they get better, but I am seeing results. H is a happy, secure little girl. Her smile is the best thing in my life and I'm so lucky to have her. I love looking into her eyes while nursing her or feeling her sweet breath on my cheek at night. Adjusting to a new baby is HARD. Putting your needs aside for the betterment of your child is HARD. Finding a balance is HARD. But once I found my tribe of women to help me become more confident in my parenting choices, I have really begun to love all aspects of parenting I KNOW things are going to get hard again...and again and again as we meet new obstacles of parenting. Right now I'm happy with how things are going. I just wish I could stay home with my daughter longer to enjoy more time with her. Amandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16700515921385894450noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4125165466190100857.post-59528813449697597252013-06-22T14:19:00.002-07:002013-07-08T23:13:20.274-07:00A gift for my daughter<a href="http://www.blogger.com/%3C!--%20START%20TOP%20CODE%20--%3E%20%3Cp%3E%3Cstrong%3EWelcome%20to%20the%20July%202013%20Carnival%20of%20Natural%20Parenting:%20Learning%20About%20Diversity%3C/strong%3E%3C/p%3E%20%3Cp%3E%3Cem%3EThis%20post%20was%20written%20for%20inclusion%20in%20the%20monthly%20Carnival%20of%20Natural%20Parenting%20hosted%20by%20%3Ca%20href=%22http://www.hobomama.com/2013/07/childrens-black-and-white-views.html%22%20target=%22_blank%22%3EHobo%20Mama%3C/a%3E%20and%20%3Ca%20href=%22http://codenamemama.com/2013/07/09/learning-about-diversity-while-traveling%22%20target=%22_blank%22%3ECode%20Name:%20Mama%3C/a%3E.%20This%20month%20our%20participants%20have%20shared%20how%20they%20teach%20their%20children%20to%20embrace%20and%20respect%20the%20variety%20of%20people%20and%20cultures%20that%20surround%20us.%20Please%20read%20to%20the%20end%20to%20find%20a%20list%20of%20links%20to%20the%20other%20carnival%20participants.%3C/em%3E%3C/p%3E%20%3Cp%3E***%3C/p%3E%20%3C!--%20END%20TOP%20CODE%20--%3E"><!-- START TOP CODE --> <strong>Welcome to the July 2013 Carnival of Natural Parenting: Learning About Diversity</strong><br />
<em>This post was written for inclusion in the monthly Carnival of Natural Parenting hosted by </em></a><em><a href="http://www.hobomama.com/2013/07/childrens-black-and-white-views.html" target="_blank">Hobo Mama</a> and <a href="http://codenamemama.com/2013/07/09/learning-about-diversity-while-traveling" target="_blank">Code Name: Mama</a>. This month our participants have shared how they teach their children to embrace and respect the variety of people and cultures that surround us. Please read to the end to find a list of links to the other carnival participants.</em><br />
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I am a Special Education Teacher for students with multiple exceptionalities. Some have Autism, some have Down's Syndrome, others have CP and some are developmentally delayed. I NEVER thought I would enter this field of teaching - however I love my job and couldn't imagine doing anything else with my life.<br />
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Growing up I wasn't brought up to respect people with disabilities. My mother told me once, that 'Mongoloids' as she called them, should be all put in a home never to bother society. (She told us this after we moved into a new house where our neighbour had D.S). I grew up thinking that people with disabilities were not to be respected and shouldn't be talked to. <br />
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After I graduated teacher's college, my friends were getting their special education qualifications, I can be quoted saying "I'm NEVER going to get my special education qualifications because I NEVER want to be in the position to teach THOSE kids". <br />
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However, 10 years later, I have my specialist in Special Education and I value, respect and learn from my students every single day. <br />
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It was a long road for me to become good at what I do and value what I do. I was embarrassed at my job at first, thinking people would think less of me because of the kinds of kids I teach. This wasn't because people judge, it was left-over feelings from growing up. I never want my daughter to think the thoughts I have had. I believe it is crucial to teach students about diversity and inclusion. My daughter will be raised knowing people come in all shapes and sizes and have different skills and talents. She will come and see talent shows put on by my students, come to dances and learn the names and faces of all my students. She will see the beauty in almond shape eyes, a lot sooner than I did. Her life will be enriched by knowing someone with Autism and knowing how amazing they are. It took me a long time to realize how much my life can be enriched by opening my heart to those with different exceptionalities. My daughter wont have to wait that long.<br />
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By opening her life to the amazing gifts people with Down Syndrome, Autism, CP and other exceptionalities will bring to her, she will be able to pave the way for inclusion at her school. She will accept the little girl with Down Syndrome in her class. She will not tolerate classmates laughing at the boy with Autism who is having a difficult time. She will be able to help educate her peers on the amazing qualities these students possess so that they have a better space at her school. As she gets older, she will sit next to the person with Down Syndrome on the bus and wont be offended if he or she starts talking to her. She will open her heart to them and treat them with kindness, dignity and respect. Something I wish I had done when I was younger but am ashamed to say I didn't. <br />
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I know you can't force relationships, but you can educate. By educating my daughter and from her hearing stories - both good and bad - about my job, she will learn to treat everyone with respect. She wont have to learn the hard way, like I had to. It will be a natural part of her life, just like eating and drinking. As much as I can't change the first 27 years of my life, I can make a difference through hers. I am proud at what I do now. My pride and my expertise will pave the way for not only her, but all those she touches. I am excited to include her with my students and have her learn from them just as I do. <br />
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<a href="http://www.hobomama.com/p/carnival-of-natural-parenting.html" target="_blank" title="Carnival of Natural Parenting"><img align="right" alt="Carnival of Natural Parenting -- Hobo Mama and Code Name: Mama" border="0" class="alignright" src="http://i233.photobucket.com/albums/ee159/lintpicker/CNPnaturalparent.jpg" /></a>Visit <a href="http://www.hobomama.com/p/carnival-of-natural-parenting.html" target="_blank"><strong>Hobo Mama</strong></a> and <a href="http://codenamemama.com/carnival-of-natural-parenting/" target="_blank"><strong>Code Name: Mama</strong></a> to find out how you can participate in the next Carnival of Natural Parenting!<br />
Please take time to read the submissions by the other carnival participants:<br />
<em>(This list will be updated by afternoon July 9 with all the carnival links.)</em><br />
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<li><strong><a href="http://amanda-mylifeinanutshell.blogspot.ca/2013/06/a-gift-for-my-daughter.html" target="_blank">A gift for my daugther</a></strong> — Amanda, a special education teacher for students with multiple exceptionalities, discusses at <strong>My Life in a Nutshell</strong> how she will enrich her daughter's life by educating her the amazing gifts her students will bring to the world. </li>
<li><strong><a href="http://www.meegs1982.com/2013/07/the-beauty-in-our-differences-carnival.html" target="_blank">The Beauty in Our Differences </a></strong> — Meegs at <strong>A New Day</strong> writes about her discussions with her daughter about how accepting ourselves and those around us, with all our beautiful differences and similarities, makes the world a better place. </li>
<li><strong><a href="http://theyareallofme.blogspot.com/2013/06/accepting-acceptance-and-tolerating.html" target="_blank">Accepting Acceptance and Tolerating Tolerance</a></strong> — Destany at <strong>They Are All of Me</strong> examines the origins of and reasons behind present day social conformity.</li>
<li><strong><a href="http://sustainable-mum.blogspot.com/2013/07/differences.html" target="_blank">Differences</a></strong> — <strong>sustainablemum</strong> discusses what she feels to be the important skills for embracing diversity in her family home.</li>
<li><strong><a href="http://anfsdc.blogspot.com/2013/07/turning-japanese.html" target="_blank">Turning Japanese</a></strong> — Erin Yuki at <strong>And Now, for Something Completely Different</strong> shares how she teaches her kiddos about Japanese culture, and offers ideas about "semi immersion" language learning. </li>
<li><strong><a href="http://www.playingforpeace.tumblr.com/post/123/at-the-international-house-cottages" target="_blank">Celebrating Diversity at the International House Cottages</a></strong> — Mommy at <strong>Playing for Peace</strong> discovers the cultures of the world with her family at local cultural festivals</li>
<li><strong><a href="http://www.hybridrastamama.com/2013/06/learning-about-diversity-by-honoring-your-childs-multiple-heritages.html" target="_blank">Learning About Diversity by Honoring Your Child’s Multiple Heritages</a></strong> — Jennifer at <strong>Hybrid Rasta Mama</strong> looks at the importance of truly knowing your roots and heritage and how to help children honor their multiple heritages.</li>
<li><strong><a href="http://ourmindfullife.blogspot.com/2013/07/people-people.html" target="_blank">People. PEOPLE!</a></strong> — Kellie at <strong>Our Mindful Life</strong> is trying to teach her children to use language that reflects respect for others, even when their language doesn't seem to them to be disrespectful.</li>
<li><strong><a href="http://www.squishablebaby.com/diverstiy-produces-empathy" target="_blank">Call Me Clarice, I Don't Care - A True Message in Diversity</a></strong> — Lisa at <strong>The Squishable Baby</strong> knows that learning to understand others produces empathetic children and empathetic families.</li>
<li><strong><a href="http://www.jananas.com/diversity-of-families/" target="_blank">Diversity of Families</a></strong> — Family can be much more then a blood relation. Jana at <strong>Jananas</strong> on why friends are so important for her little family of three.</li>
<li><strong><a href="http://www.amywilla.com/2013/07/diverse-thoughts-tamed-by-mutual-respect" target="_blank">Diverse Thoughts Tamed by Mutual Respect</a></strong> — Amy at <strong>Me, Mothering, and Making it All Work</strong> thinks that diversity is indispensable to our vitality, but that all of our many differences require a different sort of perspective, one led by compassion and mutual respect. </li>
<li><strong><a href="http://oldnewlegacy.wordpress.com/2013/07/02/just-shut-up/" target="_blank">Just Shut Up!</a></strong> — At <strong>Old New Legacy</strong>, Becky gives a few poignant examples in her life when listening, communication and friendship have helped her become more accepting of diversity.</li>
<li><strong><a href="http://projectprocrastinot.blogspot.com/2013/07/the-world-is-our-oyster.html" target="_blank">The World is our Oyster</a></strong> — Mercedes at <strong>Project Procrastinot</strong> is thankful for the experiences that an expat lifestyle will provide for herself as well as for her children. </li>
<li><strong><a href="http://www.hobomama.com/2013/07/childrens-black-and-white-views.html" target="_blank">Children's black & white views (no pun intended … kind of)</a></strong> — Lauren at <strong>Hobo Mama</strong> wonders how to guide her kids past a childish me vs. them view of the world without shutting down useful conversation.</li>
<li><strong><a href="http://wp.me/p2VTDR-1Ee" target="_blank">Raising White Kids in a Multicultural World</a></strong> — Leanna at <strong>All Done Monkey</strong> offers her two cents on how to raise white children to be self-confident, contributing members of a colorful world. Unity in diversity, anyone?</li>
<li><strong><a href="http://www.incultureparent.com/2013/07/ramadan-star-and-moon-craft/" target="_blank">Ramadan Star and Moon Craft</a></strong> — Celebrate Ramadan with this star and moon craft from Stephanie at <strong>InCultureParent</strong>, made out of recycled materials, including your kid's art!</li>
<li><strong><a href="http://wp.me/p2L387-1Fj" target="_blank">Race Matters: Discussing History, Discrimination, and Prejudice with Children</a></strong> — At <strong>Living Peacefully with Children</strong>, Mandy discusses how her family deals with the discrimination against others and how she and her husband are raising children who are making a difference.</li>
<li><strong><a href="http://www.naturalparentsnetwork.com/the-difference-is-me/" target="_blank">The Difference is Me - Living as the Rainbow Generation</a></strong> — Terri at <strong>Child of the Nature Isle</strong>, guest posting at <strong>Natural Parents Network</strong>, is used to being the odd-one-out, but walking an alternative path with children means digging deeper, answering lots of questions and opening to more love.</li>
<li><strong><a href="http://www.nurturedmama.net/my-daughter-will-only-know-same-sex-marriage-as-normal" target="_blank">My daughter will only know same-sex marriage as normal</a></strong> — Doña at <strong>Nurtured Mama</strong> realizes that the recent Supreme Court rulings on same-sex marriage will change the way she talks to her daughter about her own past.</li>
<li><strong><a href="http://livingmontessorinow.com/2013/07/09/montessori-inspired-respect-for-diversity/" target="_blank">Montessori-Inspired Respect for Diversity</a></strong> — Deb Chitwood at <strong>Living Montessori Now</strong> tells about her multicultural family and shares Montessori-inspired ideas for encouraging respect for diversity.</li>
<li><strong><a href="http://pandamoly.blogspot.com/2013/07/everyday-diversity.html" target="_blank">EveryDay Diversity</a></strong> — Ana at <strong>Panda & Ananaso</strong> makes diversity a part of everyday living, focusing on raising of compassionate and respectful child.</li>
<li><strong><a href="http://www.authenticparenting.info/2013/07/diversity-as-part-of-life.html" target="_blank">Diversity as Part of Life</a></strong> — Even though Laura at <strong>Authentic Parenting</strong> thought she had diversity covered, she found out that some things are hard to control.</li>
<li><strong><a href="http://www.lifeintertwined.com/2013/07/09/inequity-and-privilege/" target="_blank">Inequity and Privilege</a></strong> — Jona is unpacking questions raised by a summit addressing inequity in breastfeeding support at <strong>Life, Intertwined</strong>.</li>
<li><strong><a href="http://www.ithoughtiknewmama.com/2013/07/teach-children-about-diversity/" target="_blank">3 Ways to Teach Young Children About Diversity</a></strong> — Charise at <strong>I Thought I Knew Mama</strong> recognizes her family's place of privilege and shares how she is teaching her little ones about diversity in their suburban community.</li>
<li><strong><a href="http://crunchychewymama.com/index.php/teaching-diversity-tales-from-public-school" target="_blank">Teaching diversity: tales from public school</a></strong> — A former public high school teacher and current public school parent, Jessica at <strong>Crunchy-Chewy Mama</strong> values living in a diverse community.</li>
<li><strong><a href="http://codenamemama.com/2013/07/09/learning-about-diversity-while-traveling" target="_blank">30 Ideas to Encourage Learning about Diversity While Traveling</a></strong> — Traveling with kids can bring any subject alive. Dionna at <strong>Code Name: Mama</strong> has come up with a variety of ways you can incorporate diversity education into your family travels (regardless of whether you homeschool). From couch surfing to transformative reading, celebrate diversity on your next trip! </li>
<li><strong><a href="http://www.mommajorje.com/2013/07/diversity-huh.html" target="_blank">Diversity, huh?</a></strong> — Jorje of <strong>Momma Jorje</strong> doesn't do anything BIG to teach about diversity; it's more about the little things.</li>
<li><strong><a href="http://www.puginthekitchen.com/?p=985" target="_blank">Chosen and Loved</a></strong> — From Laura at <strong>Pug in the Kitchen</strong>: Color doesn't matter. Ethnicity doesn't matter. Love matters.</li>
<li><strong><a href="http://veryveryfine.squarespace.com/imported-20101215221410/2013/7/9/the-one-with-the-bright-skin.html" target="_blank">The One With The Bright Skin</a></strong> — Stefanie at <strong>Very Very Fine</strong> tries to recover from a graceless response to her son's apparent prejudice. </li>
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<!-- END BOTTOM STRAIGHT LIST CODE --></a>Amandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16700515921385894450noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4125165466190100857.post-36382020574527222782013-06-22T13:47:00.000-07:002013-06-22T14:26:12.653-07:00Looking Back - Pail monthly themed postJune is a very emotional month for me. It is funny that this month's PAIL theme is about reminiscing and looking back, as just last week I was telling a co-worker how much your life can change in just a year's time. 3 years ago in June, we were avidly trying for a baby. I remember we went camping with friends, I took an OPT and told hubby we had to DTD cause I thought I was ovulating. It was a time of excitement and naiveity. We had no idea what was in store for us. We just wanted a baby. A year later, with lots of BFN in between, we went for what we thought was our 12 week ultrasound to only find out our baby had stopped growing at 9 weeks. I will never forget that day (and the days following) for as long as I live. Even as I sit here typing, my heart aches from the hurt that I felt. Last June, (on the EXACT same day) I went for my 20 week ultrasound and found out that our Dragon baby was healthy and alive and moving like a champ. <br />
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This June, I am able to play with my amazing daughter and watch her grow and explore her surroundings. This June, I am no longer hoping and praying for a baby, but am educating myself and reading blogs and articles on what being a gentle parent entails. I am trying to find my momma bear instincts and follow them as I listen to my baby to determine what she needs. <br />
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IF and Pregnancy loss stole something from me. Not only did I loose my innocence around the 'beauty' of getting and staying pregnant, but I lost valuable time. Instead of fixating over my cycle, and worrying about every little symptom, I could have been reading about different parenting styles and discussing valuable parenting choices with my husband so we could have been better prepared. Once my daughter was here, we were lost. we had no idea what raising a baby was all about. All I wanted was to be a mom - and then once I acquired that title, I didn't know how to fulfill the role. <br />
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Looking back, I now know that I am the mother I am because of my history. IF and Loss made me guarded and scared. It made me want to hold my daughter closer and keep her safe. Perhaps its because of my IF history that my husband and I are such advocates for gentle parenting techniques. Maybe in the end, it's not all bad? Amandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16700515921385894450noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4125165466190100857.post-27473159272573076042013-06-13T08:24:00.000-07:002013-06-13T08:24:28.948-07:00When an emotional melt-down leads to some horrific advise Every second Tuesday of the month I go to a postpartum peer support group facilitated by a nutritionist/homeopath. This Tuesday the topic was on nutrition and well-being. I was feeling extremely exhausted on Tuesday. Not knowing at the time, my body was fighting a major cold that soon hit me later that day. I was tired. Tired of having to wear my daughter and tired of the all night nurse-a-thons. Mostly I was worried that I should be doing 'something' to get her to sleep more independently ... not know what that 'thing' is without her crying...not having the energy to do a lot of pick-ups/put-downs...I was drained.<br />
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I felt that maybe, someone at the group would know a good resource for meditation. I'm horrible with living in the moment and quieting my mind. I felt that maybe if I was able to meditate while nursing at night, H would fall asleep faster and not need me to actually fall asleep for her to go into a deep sleep. <br />
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Due to the exhaustion and the looming cold and everything else on my mind - when I asked for help I started to cry. I said to the group that I am 'DONE' with the way things are and that I'm looking for meditation support to see if that can change things. All the facilitator heard was 'done' and saw the tears and she proceeded, for the next 30 minutes to tell me that I need to make a change. She implied the following:<br />
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- my daughter has set the boundaries and if we continue the way things are going, she will be an unruly toddler<br />
- that she will not learn how to sleep and may become obese and have difficulties in school..co-sleeping results in kids that cannot sleep through the night by themselves.<br />
- comfort nursing is bad<br />
- that on an 'energetic' level (no idea what that means) she feels I have been unhappy for months.<br />
- That she let her kids cry it out and they turned out okay..<br />
- That Einstien's definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results (thereby insinuating I am insane?!?!)<br />
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I was so hurt. She refused to listen to what I was saying (granted through tears...mainly because what she was telling me was making me cry more). She was giving me just wrong advice. I know for a fact that sleep is a developmental milestone that all babies will reach when they are ready. Some can be helped to reach this milestone earlier...others cannot. I know for some families CIO is the only way to get sleep. I know that many babies have been left to CIO and they are in fact okay. Hubby and I have talked about this A LOT and we believe that this choice is not right for our family.<br />
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I have also talked about the topic of sleep with my local LLL chapter and I believe that comfort nursing and co-sleeping and baby wearing will change as she matures and gets older (therefore I could in theory do the same thing again and again and I WILL get different results as she isn't static and does change). <br />
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I am just very upset that someone in a position of 'authority' wouldn't let me speak my feelings and felt the need to interject her own beliefs into my life. I know she came from a position of trying to help and possibly give me 'permission' to let my daughter CIO....but that's not what I was asking for! What scares me however, is this woman will become a IBCLC come July and is a breastfeeding mentor. How can she mentor people when she so clearly feels that comfort nursing is wrong. She even told another woman in the group that she needs to set boundaries and not let her son comfort nurse. She said 'you are not a pacifier once he is done actively sucking, get him off!". This is a personal choice! I would thinks he has read the literature out there on how pacifiers are plastic human nipples! Some babies take them, others do not. If a woman wants to let her baby comfort nurse...that is HER OWN DECISION. It isn't right or wrong...it is up to the woman to decide if it is okay with her. <br />
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I came home from this meeting very upset. Luckily an on-line community support group for anxiety and depression saved me and helped put things into perspective. Hubby and I also had a really great conversation and we agreed that we will break down the sleeping situation and see if there is a way to make minor changes so that I feel progress is being started.<br />
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I haven't confronted the facilitator about this yet...I am torn on whether I should or not. In one hand, she was coming from a place of wanting to help, on the other...she needs to know that she wasn't listening to me...and if you are going to counsel, listening is the first step. <br />
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I still am wanting a meditation resource. Is there anything you have used that has worked? Either a book or something I can down-load onto my ipod. I would just like to be able to learn how to shut my brain off. Amandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16700515921385894450noreply@blogger.com7tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4125165466190100857.post-77780083701755008342013-06-03T12:07:00.000-07:002013-06-11T10:43:44.442-07:00A synopsis of our reality as first time parents<a href="http://www.blogger.com/%3Cp%3E%3Cstrong%3EWelcome%20to%20the%20June%202013%20Carnival%20of%20Natural%20Parenting:%20Parenting%20in%20Theory%20vs.%20in%20Reality%3C/strong%3E%3C/p%3E%20%20%3Cp%3E%3Cem%3EThis%20post%20was%20written%20for%20inclusion%20in%20the%20monthly%20Carnival%20of%20Natural%20Parenting%20hosted%20by%20%3Ca%20href=%22http://codenamemama.com/2013/06/11/i-wish-children-came-instruction-manuals%22%20target=%22_blank%22%3ECode%20Name:%20Mama%3C/a%3E%20and%20%3Ca%20href=%22http://www.hobomama.com/2013/06/policing-politeness.html%22%20target=%22_blank%22%3EHobo%20Mama%3C/a%3E.%20This%20month%20our%20participants%20are%20sharing%20how%20their%20ideas%20and%20methods%20of%20parenting%20have%20changed.%3C/em%3E%3C/p%3E%20%20%3Cp%3E***%3C/p%3E"><strong>Welcome to the June 2013 Carnival of Natural Parenting: Parenting in Theory vs. in Reality</strong><br />
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This post will probably summarize many of my struggles withing the last 6 months. It is a post written for <a href="http://natralparentsnetwork.com/">Hobo Momma at Natral Parents network</a> Carnival of Natrual Parenting. For those IF folks that still follow my blog, it would be similar to Mel's ICLW. <br />
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As a mother who struggled with loss and infertility, I can honestly say parenting and what type of parents my husband and I would become, wasn't on my radar. When we decided we were ready and willing to try to get pregnant, we were caught up in the 'fun' and 'excitement' of trying. We wanted a baby. A snuggly baby to hold and to nurse. We knew that we would breast feed (or I would breast feed) and we would practice gentle discipline - we don't hit our dogs...we definitely wouldn't spank our children. However, how parenting would look and the work involved wasn't something we really thought of. As months passed with no positive pregnancy test, the fun and excitement turned to worry. We (correction I) was starting to become concerned about our lack of success and with spotting for days before Aunt Flow's arrival and Dr. Google, I realized we may be dealing with more than bad timing. I requested an appointment with a specialist and we started the road of testing. However, a year after trying, just after our consultation meeting we were blessed with our first BFP! This excitement was met with reservation as I was terrified of loosing the baby. This fear must have been mother's intuition as we found out at our 12 week ultrasound that the fetus had died at 9 weeks. Devastated we took a few months off from trying and when we were going to resume testing, we found out we were pregnant again. Only this time, the fetus didn't even form. At 6 weeks we were diagnosed with a blighted ovum and once again had to deal with the reality of loosing another baby. <br />
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When we conceived our now daughter, I was cautiously optimistic. Our fertility testing showed I was having premature ovarian failure and my egg quality was low. However, with a diet change and new supplements (didn't need to take fertility drugs) we were able to conceive on our own and at 9 weeks had a very positive ultrasound. Our pregnancy was uneventful - but I was watched like a hawk and had to go through monthly ultrasounds. During the 41 weeks I was pregnant, I was scared and anxious every step of the way. We did the things normal couples do, paint the nursery, buy furniture register for the shower - but the entire time I was jaded. I just couldn't let myself believe that this was happening. I was so focused on the pregnancy, my hubby and I didn't really take time to think about what being a parent was all about.<br />
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There were a few things that we had thought would happen that showed how naive we were. We bought a crib and an organic crib mattress thinking our baby would be spending most of his or her days in there. We had a play-pen set-up downstairs so when we were downstairs he/she would nap in the play-pen. We had a bassinet for our room and a nursing chair. I knew beast feeding was the only option for us, and we had been gifted a set of cloth diapers as we wanted to cloth diaper. Going into parenthood, we had discussed CIO - and I wasn't going to let my baby cry...but I didn't really think what the alternate would be. I was niave. I thought I would nurse my baby to sleep and she would lay down and sleep blissfully for 4 hour blocks.<br />
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I wasn't anticipating the following:<br />
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- a baby born with a <a href="http://www.lung.ca/diseases-maladies/a-z/pneumothorax-pneumothorax/index_e.php">spontaneous pneumothorax</a> where we were not allowed to hold our daughter for the first 12 hours of her life and had to watch her be stabilized and go through torture in getting there<br />
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- low milk supply and needing to take medication to get a decent supply to feed my baby<br />
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- a baby with slow weight gain that made my anxieties for feeding her through the roof<br />
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- a baby who would (and almost 7 months later) LOVE to pacify / comfort nurse around the clock. At the beginning I took this behaviour or her always being hungry...<br />
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- a baby who wouldn't fall asleep nursing after 4 weeks of age. She ended up (and continues) to ONLY sleep during the day if worn in the ergo and gently bounced on an exercise ball.<br />
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- a baby who would stop sleeping large chunks at night at 4 months of age and we would resort to co-sleeping and all night nursing so that I would get any sleep.<br />
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As a first time mom, I was convinced I was screwing things up. I thought for sure I was setting my daughter up for bad habits. I cried. I was depressed. I was incredibly anxious. I started thinking we needed to sleep train her and let her cry so that she would break herself of these habits. However, the more I thought about letting her cry, the more anxious I would become. It wasn't until I started meeting other like minded moms, I realized that my baby wasn't broken - she was normal. I read the Dr Sears High Needs baby article and realized my daughter fit this description. I attended La Leche League meetings and got support and realized that CIO can lead to more problems down the road - especially for a daughter like I had. <br />
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Its funny how a few key elements shape how you parent. For us, breast feeding really paved the way to a more natural parenting road. I fundamentally believe in breast feeding and even though things started out rough, by keeping with it and understanding what mothering through breast feeding means, I became more of an advocate for other means of parenting. We will not allow our daughter to CIO. We are huge advocates for bed sharing (if you do it safely) and swear by baby-wearing. Now at 7 months, we are much more confident and comfortable in our parenting choices than we were even 2 months ago. Through living and learning and meeting our daughter's needs, she is showing us how to become parents and has forced us to throw all expectations out the window. We have lost friendships and have become distant to certain family members who do not share our same views. That's okay - we believe in what we are doing. <br />
<a href="http://www.blogger.com/%3E%20%20%3Cp%3E***%3C/p%3E%20%20%3Cp%3E%3Ca%20href=%22http://codenamemama.com/carnival-of-natural-parenting/#carnatpar" target="_blank" title="Carnival of Natural Parenting"><img align="right" alt="Carnival of Natural Parenting -- Hobo Mama and Code Name: Mama" border="0" class="alignright" src="http://i233.photobucket.com/albums/ee159/lintpicker/CNPnaturalparent.jpg" /></a>Visit <a href="http://codenamemama.com/carnival-of-natural-parenting/#carnatpar" target="_blank"> <strong>Code Name: Mama</strong></a> and <a href="http://www.hobomama.com/p/carnival-of-natural-parenting.html" target="_blank"><strong>Hobo Mama</strong></a> to find out how you can participate in the next Carnival of Natural Parenting!</p> <p>Please take time to read the submissions by the other carnival participants (posts will be live and updated no later than afternoon on June 11):</p> <div style="clear: both;"></div> <ul> <li><strong><a href="http://awfullychipper.blogspot.com/2013/06/my-little-gastronomes.html" target="_blank">My little gastronomes</a></strong> %E2%80%94 "I'll never cook a separate meal for my children," Maud at <strong>Awfully Chipper</strong> vowed before she had children; but things didn't turn out quite as she'd imagined.</li> <li><strong><a href="http://trueconfessionsofarealmommy.blogspot.com/2013/05/know-better-do-better-except-when-i-dont.html" target="_blank">Know Better, Do Better. Except When I Don't.</a></strong> %E2%80%94 Jennifer from <strong>True Confessions of a Real Mommy</strong> was able to settle in her parenting choices before her children arrived, but that doesn't mean she always lives up to them.</li> <li><strong><a href="http://www.hybridrastamama.com/2013/06/judgments-made-before-motherhood.html" target="_blank">Judgments Made Before Motherhood</a></strong> %E2%80%94 Jennifer at <strong>Hybrid Rasta Mama</strong> looks back on her views of parents she came in contact with before she became a mother and how much her worldview of parenting has changed!</li> <li><strong><a href="http://: http://ourfeministplayschool.ca/bend-road-school" target="_blank">A Bend in The Road</a></strong> %E2%80%94 Lyndsay at <strong>ourfeministplayschool</strong> writes about how her visions of homeschooling her son during the elementary school years have changed drastically in the last year - because HE wants to go to school. </li> <li><strong><a href="http://codenamemama.com/2013/06/11/i-wish-children-came-instruction-manuals" target="_blank">I Wish Children Came with Instruction Manuals</a></strong> %E2%80%94 While Dionna at <strong>Code Name: Mama</strong> loves reading about parenting, she's not found any one book that counts as an instruction manual. Every child is different, every family is different, every dynamic is different. No single parenting method or style is the be-all end-all. Still, wouldn't it be nice if parenting were like troubleshooting?</li> <li><strong><a href="http://herenowbrowncow.com/2013/06/01/parenting-mistakes/ " target="_blank">The Mistakes I've Made</a></strong> %E2%80%94 Kate at <strong>Here Now Brown Cow</strong> laments the choices she made with her first child and explains how ditching her preconceived ideas on parenting is helping her to grow a happy family.</li> <li><strong><a href="http://ourmindfullife.blogspot.com/2013/06/i-only-expected-to-love.html" target="_blank">I Only Expected to Love...</a></strong> %E2%80%94 Kellie at <strong>Our Mindful Life</strong> went into parenting expecting to not have all the answers. It turns out, she was right!</li> <li><strong><a href="http://anfsdc.blogspot.com/2013/06/they-see-me-wearin'-they-hatin'.html" target="_blank">They See Me Wearin', They Hatin'</a></strong> %E2%80%94 Erin Yuki at <strong>And Now, for Something Completely Different</strong> contemplates putting her babywearing aspirations into practice, and discussed how she deals with "babywearing haters." </li> <li><strong><a href="http://erikagebhardt.com/2013/06/11/parenting-human-beings/" target="_blank">Parenting Human Beings</a></strong> %E2%80%94 <strong>Erika Gebhardt</strong> lists her parenting "mistakes," and the one concept that has revolutionized her parenting.</li> <li><strong><a href="http://www.dreamingaloud.net/2013/06/doing-it-right-what-i-knew-before-i-had.html" target="_blank">Doing it right: what I knew before I had kids...</a></strong> %E2%80%94 Lucy at <strong>Dreaming Aloud</strong>, guest posting at <strong>Natural Parents Network</strong> realises that the number one game in town, when it comes to parenting, is judgement about doing it right. But "doing it right" looks different to everybody.</li> <li><strong><a href="http://amanda-mylifeinanutshell.blogspot.ca/2013/06/a-synopsis-of-our-reality-as-first-time.html" target="_blank">A synopsis of our reality as first time parents</a></strong> %E2%80%94 Amanda at <strong>My Life in a Nut Shell</strong> %C2%A0summarizes the struggles she went through to get pregnant, and how her daughter's high needs paved the way for her and her husband to become natural parents. %C2%A0</li> <li><strong><a href="http://www.mommajorje.com/2013/06/theory-to-reality.html" target="_blank">Theory to Reality?</a></strong> %E2%80%94 Jorje compares her original pre-kid ideas (some from her own childhood) to her personal parenting realities on <strong>MommaJorje.com</strong>.</li> <li><strong><a href="http://www.puginthekitchen.com/2013/06/the-princess-paradigm" target="_blank">The Princess Paradigm</a></strong> %E2%80%94 Laura at <strong>Pug in the Kitchen</strong> had planned to raise her daughter in a sparkly, princess-free home, but in turn has found herself embracing the glitz.</li> <li><strong><a href="http://ecojourneyintheburbs.blogspot.com/2013/06/healthy-eating-with-kids-ideal-vs-real.html" target="_blank">Healthy Eating With Kids: Ideal vs. Real</a></strong> %E2%80%94 Christy at <strong>Eco Journey In The Burbs</strong> had definite ideas about what healthy eating was going to look like in her family before she had kids. Little did she realize that her kids would have something to say about it.</li> <li><strong><a href="http://how-deal-unwanted-parenting-advice" target="_blank">How to deal with unwanted parenting advice</a></strong> %E2%80%94 Tat at <strong>Mum in Search</strong> thought that dealing with unwanted parenting advice would be a breeze. It turned out to be one of her biggest challenges as a new mum.</li> <li><strong><a href="http://oldnewlegacy.wordpress.com/2013/06/11/how-i-trained-my-43-month-old-in-89-days/" target="_blank">How I trained my 43 month old in 89 days!</a></strong> %E2%80%94 Becky at <strong>Old New Legacy</strong> used to mock sticker charts, until they became her best friend in the process of potty training.</li> <li><strong><a href="http://projectprocrastinot.blogspot.com/2013/06/my-double-life-scheduling-with-twins.html" target="_blank">My Double Life: Scheduling with Twins</a></strong> %E2%80%94 Mercedes at <strong>Project Procrastinot</strong> was banging her head against the wall trying to keep up with the plan she made during pregnancy, until she let her babies lead the way. %C2%A0</li> <li><strong><a href="http://crunchychewymama.com/index.php/parenting-in-the-land-of-compromise" target="_blank">Parenting in the land of compromise</a></strong> %E2%80%94 As a holistic health geek trying to take care of her health issues naturally, Jessica at <strong>Crunchy-Chewy Mama</strong> regrets that her needs sometimes get in the way of her children's needs.</li> <li><strong><a href="http://www.thevariegatedlife.com/practice-makes-good/" target="_blank">Practice Makes Good, Not Perfect</a></strong> %E2%80%94 Rachael at <strong>The Variegated Life</strong> comes to see that through practice, she just might already be the parent she wants to be.</li> <li><strong><a href="http://www.sheilapai.com/3-dangerous-myths-about-parenting-and-partnering" target="_blank">3 Dangerous Myths about Parenting and Partnering: How to Free Yourself and Your Family</a></strong> %E2%80%94 Sheila Pai at <strong>A Living Family</strong> shares in theory (blog) and reality (video) how she frees herself from 3 Dangerous Myths about Parenting and Partnering that can damage the connection, peace and love she seeks to nurture in her relationships with family and others.</li> <li><strong><a href="http://www.diaryofafirstchild.com/2013/06/14/5-things-i-thought-my-children-would-never-do" target="_blank">5 Things I Thought MY Children Would Never Do</a></strong> %E2%80%94 Luschka at <strong>Diary of a First Child</strong> largely laughs at herself and her previous misconceptions about things her children would or wouldn't do, or be allowed to do. </li> <li><strong><a href="http://www.hobomama.com/2013/06/policing-politeness.html" target="_blank">Policing politeness</a></strong> %E2%80%94 Lauren at <strong>Hobo Mama</strong> rethinks a conviction she had about modeling vs. teaching her children about courtesy.</li> <li><strong><a href="http://www.amywilla.com/2013/06/the-before-and-the-after" target="_blank">The Before and The After: Learning about Parenting</a></strong> %E2%80%94 Amy at <strong>Me, Mothering, and Making it All Work</strong> reminisces about the perspective she held as a young adult working with children (and parents) . . . before she became a mother. </li> <li><strong><a href="http://wp.me/p2L387-1EE" target="_blank">Parenting Beliefs: Becoming the Parent You Want to Be</a></strong> %E2%80%94 Mandy at <strong>Living Peacefully with Children</strong> discusses how we can make a mindful decision to become the parent we want to be. Decisions we make affect who we will become.</li> <li><strong><a href="http://www.squishablebaby.com/the-great-breastfeeding-debacle" target="_blank">The Great Breastfeeding Debacle</a></strong> %E2%80%94 In Lisa at <strong>The Squishable Baby's</strong> mind, breastfeeding would be easy.</li> <li><strong><a href="http://littlegreenblog.com/family-and-food/green-parenting/what-my-daughter-taught-me" target="_blank">What my daughter taught me about being a parent</a></strong> %E2%80%94 <strong>Mrs Green</strong> asks, "Is it ever ok to lock your child in their bedroom?"</li> <li><strong><a href="http://www.thebohomama.com/2013/06/sensory-box-fail.html" target="_blank">Sensory Box Fail!</a></strong> %E2%80%94 Megan at <strong>The Boho Mama</strong> discovers that thoughtful sensory activities can sometimes lead to pasta in your bra and beans up your nose. </li> <li><strong><a href="http://livingmontessorinow.com/2013/06/11/montessori-and-my-children-theory-vs-reality/" target="_blank">Montessori and My Children %E2%80%93 Theory vs. Reality</a></strong> %E2%80%94 Deb Chitwood at <strong>Living Montessori Now</strong> shares her experiences with Montessori parenting and describes the results she sees in her now-adult children.</li> <li><strong><a href="http://wp.me/p3j3Dt-1Od" target="_blank">I Like The Mother I Am Now More Than The Mother I Intended To Be</a></strong> %E2%80%94 Darcel at <strong>The Mahogany Way</strong> thought she would just give her kids the look and they would immediately fall in line.</li> </ul> <div class="clear"></div>">> ***<br />
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<li><strong><a href="http://awfullychipper.blogspot.com/2013/06/my-little-gastronomes.html" target="_blank">My little gastronomes</a></strong> — "I'll never cook a separate meal for my children," Maud at <strong>Awfully Chipper</strong> vowed before she had children; but things didn't turn out quite as she'd imagined.</li>
<li><strong><a href="http://trueconfessionsofarealmommy.blogspot.com/2013/05/know-better-do-better-except-when-i-dont.html" target="_blank">Know Better, Do Better. Except When I Don't.</a></strong> — Jennifer from <strong>True Confessions of a Real Mommy</strong> was able to settle in her parenting choices before her children arrived, but that doesn't mean she always lives up to them.</li>
<li><strong><a href="http://www.hybridrastamama.com/2013/06/judgments-made-before-motherhood.html" target="_blank">Judgments Made Before Motherhood</a></strong> — Jennifer at <strong>Hybrid Rasta Mama</strong> looks back on her views of parents she came in contact with before she became a mother and how much her worldview of parenting has changed!</li>
<li><strong><a href="http://:%20http//ourfeministplayschool.ca/bend-road-school" target="_blank">A Bend in The Road</a></strong> — Lyndsay at <strong>ourfeministplayschool</strong> writes about how her visions of homeschooling her son during the elementary school years have changed drastically in the last year - because HE wants to go to school. </li>
<li><strong><a href="http://codenamemama.com/2013/06/11/i-wish-children-came-instruction-manuals" target="_blank">I Wish Children Came with Instruction Manuals</a></strong> — While Dionna at <strong>Code Name: Mama</strong> loves reading about parenting, she's not found any one book that counts as an instruction manual. Every child is different, every family is different, every dynamic is different. No single parenting method or style is the be-all end-all. Still, wouldn't it be nice if parenting were like troubleshooting?</li>
<li><strong><a href="http://herenowbrowncow.com/2013/06/01/parenting-mistakes/" target="_blank">The Mistakes I've Made</a></strong> — Kate at <strong>Here Now Brown Cow</strong> laments the choices she made with her first child and explains how ditching her preconceived ideas on parenting is helping her to grow a happy family.</li>
<li><strong><a href="http://ourmindfullife.blogspot.com/2013/06/i-only-expected-to-love.html" target="_blank">I Only Expected to Love...</a></strong> — Kellie at <strong>Our Mindful Life</strong> went into parenting expecting to not have all the answers. It turns out, she was right!</li>
<li><strong><a href="http://anfsdc.blogspot.com/2013/06/they-see-me-wearin'-they-hatin'.html" target="_blank">They See Me Wearin', They Hatin'</a></strong> — Erin Yuki at <strong>And Now, for Something Completely Different</strong> contemplates putting her babywearing aspirations into practice, and discussed how she deals with "babywearing haters." </li>
<li><strong><a href="http://erikagebhardt.com/2013/06/11/parenting-human-beings/" target="_blank">Parenting Human Beings</a></strong> — <strong>Erika Gebhardt</strong> lists her parenting "mistakes," and the one concept that has revolutionized her parenting.</li>
<li><strong><a href="http://www.dreamingaloud.net/2013/06/doing-it-right-what-i-knew-before-i-had.html" target="_blank">Doing it right: what I knew before I had kids...</a></strong> — Lucy at <strong>Dreaming Aloud</strong>, guest posting at <strong>Natural Parents Network</strong> realises that the number one game in town, when it comes to parenting, is judgement about doing it right. But "doing it right" looks different to everybody.</li>
<li><strong><a href="http://amanda-mylifeinanutshell.blogspot.ca/2013/06/a-synopsis-of-our-reality-as-first-time.html" target="_blank">A synopsis of our reality as first time parents</a></strong> — Amanda at <strong>My Life in a Nut Shell</strong> summarizes the struggles she went through to get pregnant, and how her daughter's high needs paved the way for her and her husband to become natural parents. </li>
<li><strong><a href="http://www.mommajorje.com/2013/06/theory-to-reality.html" target="_blank">Theory to Reality?</a></strong> — Jorje compares her original pre-kid ideas (some from her own childhood) to her personal parenting realities on <strong>MommaJorje.com</strong>.</li>
<li><strong><a href="http://www.puginthekitchen.com/2013/06/the-princess-paradigm" target="_blank">The Princess Paradigm</a></strong> — Laura at <strong>Pug in the Kitchen</strong> had planned to raise her daughter in a sparkly, princess-free home, but in turn has found herself embracing the glitz.</li>
<li><strong><a href="http://ecojourneyintheburbs.blogspot.com/2013/06/healthy-eating-with-kids-ideal-vs-real.html" target="_blank">Healthy Eating With Kids: Ideal vs. Real</a></strong> — Christy at <strong>Eco Journey In The Burbs</strong> had definite ideas about what healthy eating was going to look like in her family before she had kids. Little did she realize that her kids would have something to say about it.</li>
<li><strong><a href="http://how-deal-unwanted-parenting-advice/" target="_blank">How to deal with unwanted parenting advice</a></strong> — Tat at <strong>Mum in Search</strong> thought that dealing with unwanted parenting advice would be a breeze. It turned out to be one of her biggest challenges as a new mum.</li>
<li><strong><a href="http://oldnewlegacy.wordpress.com/2013/06/11/how-i-trained-my-43-month-old-in-89-days/" target="_blank">How I trained my 43 month old in 89 days!</a></strong> — Becky at <strong>Old New Legacy</strong> used to mock sticker charts, until they became her best friend in the process of potty training.</li>
<li><strong><a href="http://projectprocrastinot.blogspot.com/2013/06/my-double-life-scheduling-with-twins.html" target="_blank">My Double Life: Scheduling with Twins</a></strong> — Mercedes at <strong>Project Procrastinot</strong> was banging her head against the wall trying to keep up with the plan she made during pregnancy, until she let her babies lead the way. </li>
<li><strong><a href="http://crunchychewymama.com/index.php/parenting-in-the-land-of-compromise" target="_blank">Parenting in the land of compromise</a></strong> — As a holistic health geek trying to take care of her health issues naturally, Jessica at <strong>Crunchy-Chewy Mama</strong> regrets that her needs sometimes get in the way of her children's needs.</li>
<li><strong><a href="http://www.thevariegatedlife.com/practice-makes-good/" target="_blank">Practice Makes Good, Not Perfect</a></strong> — Rachael at <strong>The Variegated Life</strong> comes to see that through practice, she just might already be the parent she wants to be.</li>
<li><strong><a href="http://www.sheilapai.com/3-dangerous-myths-about-parenting-and-partnering" target="_blank">3 Dangerous Myths about Parenting and Partnering: How to Free Yourself and Your Family</a></strong> — Sheila Pai at <strong>A Living Family</strong> shares in theory (blog) and reality (video) how she frees herself from 3 Dangerous Myths about Parenting and Partnering that can damage the connection, peace and love she seeks to nurture in her relationships with family and others.</li>
<li><strong><a href="http://www.diaryofafirstchild.com/2013/06/14/5-things-i-thought-my-children-would-never-do" target="_blank">5 Things I Thought MY Children Would Never Do</a></strong> — Luschka at <strong>Diary of a First Child</strong> largely laughs at herself and her previous misconceptions about things her children would or wouldn't do, or be allowed to do. </li>
<li><strong><a href="http://www.hobomama.com/2013/06/policing-politeness.html" target="_blank">Policing politeness</a></strong> — Lauren at <strong>Hobo Mama</strong> rethinks a conviction she had about modeling vs. teaching her children about courtesy.</li>
<li><strong><a href="http://www.amywilla.com/2013/06/the-before-and-the-after" target="_blank">The Before and The After: Learning about Parenting</a></strong> — Amy at <strong>Me, Mothering, and Making it All Work</strong> reminisces about the perspective she held as a young adult working with children (and parents) . . . before she became a mother. </li>
<li><strong><a href="http://wp.me/p2L387-1EE" target="_blank">Parenting Beliefs: Becoming the Parent You Want to Be</a></strong> — Mandy at <strong>Living Peacefully with Children</strong> discusses how we can make a mindful decision to become the parent we want to be. Decisions we make affect who we will become.</li>
<li><strong><a href="http://www.squishablebaby.com/the-great-breastfeeding-debacle" target="_blank">The Great Breastfeeding Debacle</a></strong> — In Lisa at <strong>The Squishable Baby's</strong> mind, breastfeeding would be easy.</li>
<li><strong><a href="http://littlegreenblog.com/family-and-food/green-parenting/what-my-daughter-taught-me" target="_blank">What my daughter taught me about being a parent</a></strong> — <strong>Mrs Green</strong> asks, "Is it ever ok to lock your child in their bedroom?"</li>
<li><strong><a href="http://www.thebohomama.com/2013/06/sensory-box-fail.html" target="_blank">Sensory Box Fail!</a></strong> — Megan at <strong>The Boho Mama</strong> discovers that thoughtful sensory activities can sometimes lead to pasta in your bra and beans up your nose. </li>
<li><strong><a href="http://livingmontessorinow.com/2013/06/11/montessori-and-my-children-theory-vs-reality/" target="_blank">Montessori and My Children – Theory vs. Reality</a></strong> — Deb Chitwood at <strong>Living Montessori Now</strong> shares her experiences with Montessori parenting and describes the results she sees in her now-adult children.</li>
<li><strong><a href="http://wp.me/p3j3Dt-1Od" target="_blank">I Like The Mother I Am Now More Than The Mother I Intended To Be</a></strong> — Darcel at <strong>The Mahogany Way</strong> thought she would just give her kids the look and they would immediately fall in line.</li>
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Amandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16700515921385894450noreply@blogger.com8tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4125165466190100857.post-83994311217939391252013-05-22T14:21:00.001-07:002013-05-22T14:21:31.381-07:00Attachment Parenting - a reflectionHubby and I are full-fledged attachment parents. Breast feeding, baby wearing, co-sleeping (granola-crunchy hippie type) parents. This wasn't fully a choice we decided upon before having H, it just came about as issue arose and we needed to find solutions. We do not believe in CIO - after doing research and KNOWING OUR DAUGHTER we realize it isn't for us. For some, I can see it working. For us, not so much. See H is a <a href="http://www.analyticalarmadillo.co.uk/2011/11/duracell-bunnyhigh-needsspirited-baby.html">Duracell Bunny Baby</a> and she will not just fall asleep with some gentle guidance. On Friday, I had the stomach flu and had to be in the washroom for almost 2 hours (it was nasty). She SCREAMED the entire time (even in daddy's arms) as she was tired and needed me to help her go to sleep. Her cries didn't stop as the books said they would. She didn't slow down...she kept on screaming (as she does in the car). I eventually was able to nurse her - but then when I had to go to the washroom again she woke up and screamed for another 30 min until I came back to bed. It was rough. See we know that she is the way she is and that it would take some drastic measures to get her to sleep on her own. This is hard for us...and is a source of contention all the time. I am ready to try some of these measures at least 3 days of the week, and hubby refuses. He feels that the research shows it would do more harm then good (I agree with him...I'm just exhausted). AP is natural and for us it just makes sense. Luckily, living in Canada we have a year off to be able to stay home with our babies. I don't think it would be possible to be a working mom and an AP parent. <br />
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Reading other blogs this week about the return of Aunt Flow and ovulation cycles has me thinking - I don't have any idea when my period will return - but it doesn't matter cause the stars have to align just so for us to have sex! It isn't because H is in our bed - that isn't the issue. We have other beds in our house. Its because she needs to comfort suck ALL NIGHT LONG. I am too exhausted to fight this need (but getting to the point where I really want it to stop) and have no idea on HOW to stop it knowing that she is so stubborn (unless we enlist more drastic measures). AP - for us - is a natural form of birth control LOL. We don't need to worry about having another baby any time too soon! This is the hardest part. I'm not sure if it is the teething or wonder week or what, but during the day she needs to be in my sight 100 percent of the time. If I leave her for a moment, she screams bloody murder. I can't handle it. So she spends a lot of her days in the ring sling on my hip. Napping is still on us as she wont sleep in her bed during the day and if we try and transfer her she wakes up. I do really want to work on this habit, and am starting to slowly by eliminating the constant movement from her naps. This is hard though as her naps turn out to be half the length they can be if I were to bounce her the entire time. I guess it is all a balancing act. If she is well slept and within my sight, H is a very happy little girl. She loves to be on the ground rolling around and is almost crawling. She loves to 'sing' and interact with the dogs. Being with her and seeing how happy she is makes my heart sing and realize deep down, we are doing what's right for her. <br />
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Over all AP is just natural for us - its the do what works philosophy that meets are child's needs. I have a lot of friends right now with babies and H is definitely the highest needy baby out of all of them. I see how each baby is different and how different strategies work. H is not easily fooled by plastic substitutes (bottles or soothers) and really needs her mommy and daddy. This is okay - it just makes it hard for us to find time for each other. Hopefully things become easier in time...Amandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16700515921385894450noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4125165466190100857.post-89699599044415736492013-04-23T11:42:00.001-07:002013-04-23T11:42:06.013-07:00Dear DaughterAs you are laying on my chest curled up in the moby wrap, there are so many things I would like to tell you. This letter is to you in hopes that I can turn some 'negative' elements of the first 5.5 months of our time together into positive ones.<br />
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I love breast feeding you. It took us a long time to get a routine going. You loved to nurse...all the time and it frightened me when you were younger that you weren't getting enough to eat. I now, looking back, think you were. You were simply a slow gainer (and still are) and just enjoyed being comforted on the boob. Now, I enjoy nursing you. I love how convenient it is. I love when you play peek-a-boo with daddy while pretending to nurse. I love laying down beside you at night holding your hand while you nurse your way into a slumber. Although it took awhile for me to realize it, breastfeeding has worked for us. We are a success story! We are very lucky to have doctors that know about breastfeeding and are okay with your slow gain. They see how happy you are and how much you are thriving and are fine with your slow gain. Someone has to be small right? Your chubby cheeks and beautiful blue eyes tell the world that you are doing OK!<br />
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I love falling asleep beside you at night. Although it bothers me to have to go to sleep so EARLY some nights, the truth is, I'm usually pretty tired myself and welcome sleep. You look forward to this to. You start to cry and get cranky as soon as we go to mommy's bed and just wait in anticipation for me to lift my shirt so that you can latch on. As much as I tell myself I will just wait to your asleep and then roll away, we both know that unless I fall asleep, you never get into a deep enough sleep for me to just roll away. The hormone transfer that happens between us is nothing but pure magic. You need that hormonal release to fall asleep and the funny thing is...so do I! The nights that you do sleep in your bassinet for a couple of hours (which are VERY few and far between) I usually am up tossing an turning awaiting the moment for you to come back to bed and latch on so that I can fall asleep too. Some would say this is a bad habit for us to be getting into and that daddy and I need to teach you to fall asleep on your own. I argue saying that sleep is a developmental state that you will reach when you are ready. We celebrate milestones like rolling, walking and talking, but we criticize sleep regressions as if they symbolize a 'bad' baby. Truth is, sleep regressions and triumphs are as developmentally normal as rolling and crawling. We need to take the good with the bad. The beauty of co-sleeping and you comfort nursing is that mommy can just go back to sleep. No floor walking, rocking, bouncing etc at 3 am. We can just roll-over and sleep together and we both get rest. I love waking up to your smiling face and you forcing me to stay in bed longer than I normally would so that you can get the sleep you need while comfort nursing. Our days have become much more relaxing (even though some days I want to scream from feeling like a prisoner to you).<br />
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I love how putting you in the wrap is such an easy way to get you to sleep. There is rarely any fussing. You look forward to it. I don't enjoy having to wear you for your entire nap...but sitting on the exercise ball allows me time on the computer to read, watch a movie or do whatever else I want to do. I can't relax on the couch or take a nap..but it does give me permission to just be. Some days I try and lay you down in hopes that you will stay asleep...maybe when you are a bit older your morrow reflex wont wake you up...or you'll have been so comfortable in staying asleep on mommy you will just roll over and fall asleep. Either way, we can work around your needs. <br />
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Truth is buttercup we wanted you so badly in our lives. We loved you so much and you gave us such a scary start that we are afraid if we are doing things right. I never want to second guess myself and co-sleeping, baby wearing and breast feeding allow us to never think twice about what we are doing. You enjoy it and so we know we are meeting your needs. Life is too short, and given what happened to cousin Tyler's baby, it can be taken away from us all too quickly. We will hold you for as long as you need and love you with all our might. Things are definitely not easy for mommy and daddy. We don't like the lack of time we have for each other and needing to sleep in separate bedrooms, but we do it because we love you and we are committed to meeting your needs and making your transition into this world as smooth as it can be. When you are older and are able to understand more ... we may try to encourage you to be more independent. But right now, you are a baby and are learning so much. You don't understand what is happening to you just as much as we don't understand it. You need the comfort and security and we are here to provide that to you. <br />
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MommyAmandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16700515921385894450noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4125165466190100857.post-76429985041171140842013-04-04T08:53:00.001-07:002013-04-04T08:53:51.808-07:00PerspectiveAs we are further and further into this horrific sleep regression - or as I like to think - my new reality of having a baby latched onto me for most of the night - I started to think 'Why me'. Why couldn't I get one of those magic sleeping babies? What have I done to make her sleep like this? <br />
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Then I got a big dose of perspective. It usually happens through the blogging community when I read of someone's failed IVF, or miscarriage. I become thankful I'm out of those trenches and have my beautiful little girl. <br />
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This week's perspective came in a form of an email sent out to family by hubby's cousin. He was the messenger for another cousin stating that their baby, only 3 weeks old, died on the weekend from an unknown heart failure. They had no idea anything was wrong. <br />
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This breaks my heart. This is their second child. They were so happy the last time I saw them. <br />
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The service for immediate family was yesterday. We sent them an edible arrangement. What else can you do? We aren't overly close to this family (funerals/weddings and the odd visit here and there) but this loss is taking its toll on me.<br />
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All of a sudden being up all night nursing my baby has a whole other meaning. At least I have a baby to nurse. Loving and nursing my baby isn't doing anything wrong.<br />
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I've been holding her a little more close to me these days. <br />
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My heart aches for this family. They are such amazing people - I can't imagine what this will do to them.<br />
<br />This is too close to home for me :(Amandahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16700515921385894450noreply@blogger.com2