Still Truckin . . .

As far as I know, Dragon baby and I are still truckin along. 

I wanted to wait to post until I had more definitive news.  I had one post started titled "April Fools" where I was gonna post how Dragon baby just played an April Fools joke on me by having me spot on just that day....but the spotting continued for a few more days (after stopping and then starting again).  So far *knock on wood* I've had nothing for 24 hours. 

I called my Dr's office 2x and talked to 2 separate nurses.  Each said that since it wasn't heavy, bright red or accompanied with heavy cramps I should be okay.  However, since my first pregnancy the fetus didn't survive past 9 weeks 5 days, and Sunday, when the bleeding/spotting started was 9 weeks 5 days, I haven't been able to get excited about much.  I have had cramps on and off - but they are contained to one side and resemble - to varying degrees - cramps I've had all along in this journey. 

Since retching/throwing up caused me to bleed more, as I would bear down and strain my cervix, I have started taking diclectin to avoid the urge to vomit.  I also figure the extreme constipation resulting in a very difficult BM (sorry for the TMI) is a result from not drinking enough water because I throw it up.  I should take the drugs so I can drink more water.  It took it for 2 nights and I think it was successful .  Last night I forgot because I was just too tired to get out of bed when I remembered.  Today hasn't been so good :(

I just want to get excited in this pregnancy again.  I was super happy after the ultrasound and that only lived for 4 days.  My logic brain says that it is all because of the internal ultrasound (I had bleeding afterward) and that everything is okay.  My emotional brain is worried sick that Dragon isn't doing well. 

Today I am 10 weeks 3 days according to my ultrasound.  I go on Thursday for my physical and I'm hoping that maybe she will use the doplar and see if there is a heartbeat?  Otherwise I have to wait until the 24 for my next ultrasound. 

Thanks for thinking of me!  Please continue to keep us in your thoughts!