I just deleted a very hurtful comment from my blog regarding my struggle with breastfeeding and that I should just get off my high horse and give my baby the nutrients she needs.
I don't understand why people leave nasty comments when this should be a community of support.
What this poster needs to know:
- I have gone to get her weighed every week since birth
- I have been supplementing with pumped breast milk since her 2nd week of birth
- Each time I have gone, I have asked about formula and each time the nurse practitioner said NOT THERE YET...keep trying she is GAINING
- the very day she and I agree it is time to supplement with formula I do - keeping my baby healthy is my NUMBER ONE PRIORITY
The reason it is bothering me so much is because of feelings of inadequacy that I have with MY BODY given everything I have been through.
Why would anyone say anything to imply I am being selfish and not doing what's best for my baby. This hits a raw nerve because it is EXACTLY the same sentiments my mother said to me yesterday. Why can't a mother mourn her goal of exclusive breastfeeding?
Thank you for questioning my parenting abilities and priorities. Thank you for assuming I am being a bad mother and that I'm on a high horse for trying to breast feed. I guess if one is infertile and can't conceive naturally and they take herbs/medication to help get pregnant they are on a high horse too? I mean..they could always adopt...being a parent is being a parent right? (please note sarcasm). Everyone has goals and they try to achieve those goals and will try everything before giving up. My babies health was NOT in jeopardy - if I wasn't working so closely with medical professionals then maybe - but I was following their directions exactly.
This just makes me want to stop blogging altogether. Ugh.