Tomorrow is my last day of work until the holidays. It also happens to be my pregnant co-workers last.day.ever. Although she has only put in for her 1 year leave, she has told us that she wont be returning back to work - that she will be a stay at home mom. It hasn't hit me yet that she'll be gone for good. Words cannot express what an amazing person she is and how talented she is with the kids. I am so sad that she will be gone - and worst, I'm not leaving with her. Last year when we realized she was going, I was happy that I would be going too so that I wouldn't have to endure working without her. Now, she'll be gone for her baby - and there isn't a baby in the works for me yet - and I have to continue on. To top it all off, when we come back, we'll have someone in for about a week until the board does an internal shuffle and then we'll get someone totally new again. This will cause MASSIVE disruptions to my class causing me a great deal of stress.
All of this is making me feel so incredibly sorry for myself and so incredibly selfish at the same time. Instead of being happy for my co-worker who is about to embark on an amazing adventure - I'm sitting here sad for myself because my life is going to be turned upside down at work. I am angry that I will have to do more and delegate more because she is so amazing and over the last 2.5 years we have worked so well together she just knows what to do without me having to tell her. I'm upset that there is no way I can express all of my thoughts to her since I can't really speak to her much as I am too sad since loosing my second pregnancy. I do an okay job of covering up my hurt on a daily basis, but now loosing her, I feel like I should tell her everything but I don't know how. Maybe I'll give her a card? It is too late for a gift - I am not facing the stores 2 nights before Christmas now. Ugh sometimes everything just sucks!