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Ahh...coming home from a vacation has never felt so good. I don't know if it was the weather (and knowing we were missing gorgeous spring weather here back home) Hubby's anxiety about a potential Tsumani/earthquake that kept him up most nights (thereby keeping me up), the horrible pillows at our cottage, my never-ending anxiety about this pregnancy and all that could happen being so far from home..but I'm glad to be back. We DID have a good time and I am glad we went. However, there was a lot preventing both of us from fully enjoying ourselves. However, we did get to re-connect with great friends once we left Tofino and spent a night in Squamish. It was so nice to see them. They have a 2 year old daughter who is just so cute. Hubby has been great friends the man for years so it was nice to see them reconnect too.
In terms of my pregnancy, thank you thank you thank you to all the lovely, kind words of encouragement. My last post was needed to release some of the negative energy I was holding in. After writing it, things became a lot more relaxed inside. Sometimes I think it is just a release I need. I have definitely started to get more sick - overall, including the 2x today, I've thrown up about 5 times on the trip. Not quite once a day, but it is certainly more than I ever had with my last 2 pregnancies. Water does it to me...so if anyone has a suggestion on how I can still keep fluid down without throwing it back up, I'd love to hear it.
I'm still having twinges of pain - specifically on my left side but it does jump to my right once and awhile. I am not sure what it is, but since it isn't 100% of the time and hasn't been that painful, I'm pretty certain it isn't ectopic pregnancy pain (or at least I'm praying it isn't). Since I've had pain on the right, I figure if it were ectopic wouldn't it be solely in one place? As far as everything else goes....I guess I just have to wait and see how things turn out. Only 1 week and 1 day left until the ultrasound. Which I'm both excited and extremely nervous for. Nausea is such a funny thing - when I have it, I feel awful and just want to die. When it is gone, I'm worried that there is something wrong. Too bad I just can't allow things to take its course.
Tomorrow I go back to work - I'm so, so tired. I can't imagine working all week. Plus, to top it off I have to teach Wed night AND I have parent-teacher interviews on Thurs. Ugh. Gonna be a long week!