Thursday, January 5, 2012


I am feeling very sad right now. I just got back from seeing my fertility specialist and got the results of our investigation cycle.

So - my FSH and LH hormones were very high indicated low ovarian reserve. I only had 4 follicles when a woman my age should have had 10. Once I did ovulate, my dominant follicle measured small. My progesterone is also low. My endimetrial lining was lagging by 2 days of where it should have been.

Hubby's test didn't come back completely normal either and we are looking at possible male-factor.

I thought the ureaplasma was our issue and that everything would be okay. I can't change my low egg count. I'm only 29 and we have been trying forever now. Hearing this news makes the 2 miscarriages that much harder. Poor eggs can be linked to the miscarriages. I just wish I didn't have to go through those losses as it may be the only time we could get pregnant.

I don't know how many times in the last year I have heard "you are young it will happen," but now, hearing the results today - that isn't necessarily the case. My age is not reflective of the amount of time I have left - in fact, it is like I am starting early menopause.

I have to go for repeat tests next month and based on those results our doctor will give us our options.  I KNOW there are many others who have gone through this and worse.  I guess it is hitting me hard because I never thought it would be me.   I'm not sure what's worse - unexplained infertility or knowing there is something wrong that you may not be able to completely fix. 



  1. Amanda, I'm so sorry to read this. I'm sending you strength to navigate through the coming weeks. Big Hugs.

  2. I'm so sorry that you got this news today. That just sucks! Don't lose hope, though. There's a reason they want to repeat these tests, as levels fluctuate. I the meantime, you're in my thoughts.

  3. I am so sorry about this.

    I have been reading a lot about melatonin, antioxidants, and how they both can help egg quality, FYI. In case you were feeling google deprived.

    Sending you big hugs.

  4. ::hug:: so sorry to hear that news. maybe the repeat will show it isn't as bad as they think??

  5. Amanda, that really sucks. A lot. I'm so sorry and I'll be thinking about you.

  6. So sorry for your bad news :(

    I have also heard these can fluctuate. GL!

  7. Nothing to say really - Sorry about the bad news. This sucks :(

    Sending you a big hug!

  8. I am so sorry you got this news, Amanda. I was really hoping getting rid of the ureaplasma would be all you were facing. I can see why this would be hitting you so hard. :(

  9. Hi Amanda,

    I just found out I have high FSH too. And testosterone (weird- we still haven't figured that one out). I feel like we have similar experiences in that our RE's can't quite put their finger on what is going on. I feel the same as you...high FSH on top of everything else? Mine nearly doubled since last March.

    My RE wants me to do ICSI, PGD, and Human Growth Hormone shots next IVF. We are deciding if it is all worth it. If it works of course it is, if it doesn't...well that is a huge gamble.

    Big decisions to be made...

  10. Oh no :( So sorry to hear about the test results. I hope you and your husband get an opportunity do something nice / relaxing.

  11. Hi I found you on IComLeavWe, but never got to read and comment till now.

    I am so sorry you got bad news. Hoping and praying your tests com back better next month and you have some good options.

  12. So sorry to hear this girl. I don't know if one is worse than the other, unexplained vs. knowing the issue, they're both awful and so, so hard. Praying that next month brings some better news and some guidance for future plans.