Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Good news and Breaking heart

If you know me in Real Life - I am about to disclose information that is incredibly private.  I have pondered for days on whether or not I should post this, as I know there are a few people I know that still read this blog. Please, Please respect me and my wishes to A) Keep what you read private and not share with anyone B) Not bring it up to me in ANY way shape or form.  I will continue on believing that this is being shared with a wonderful IF community and not necessarily anyone I know.  This space is for me to share my thoughts and feelings and I need not censor it for anyone. Thank you for respecting my wishes.

The blogging world is giving Mo all her love -  my hear breaks for her as she has to undergo the worst nightmare that any pregnant mommy wants to endure.  I too am sending her my love, thoughts and prayers.

It is hard to celebrate my happiness and success when another heart breaks, but I must.  In my previous pregnancies I didn't allow myself to be happy.  I need to celebrate my beta numbers.  I think you can be sad for someone else while celebrate your own happiness.

Today is CD 27 (not sure how many DPO as I didn't think I ovulated!)

Numbers are 279 - up from 71.6 on Sunday!

I have to wait until the week of March 19 to get my first viability ultrasound as my dr is going on holidays. I'm okay with this as I wanted to wait until there was actually something to see - rather than go and potentially repeat the nightmare I had before.

Thank you for all your words of kindness.  Please continue to keep my dragon baby in your thoughts - if there is enough room for us!


  1. I'm very happy to hear the betas continue to rise! Some good news during a time of such heartbreak. I will continue to keep you in my thoughts, hoping for a healthy, happy and uneventful 9 months.

  2. I'm in exactly the same spot as you: happy for myself, and incredibly sad and heartbroken for Mo.
    And I'm happy for you - congrats on your great beta, and the best of luck for your dragon baby to hold on tight!

  3. Great beta!!! So exciting, I hope the numbers keep going up and up :) :)

  4. Agreed... great beta. Will send my prayers your way too. Enjoy it as much as you can!