Mondays - ugh. Hardest day of the week. Knowing you need to survive 5 whole working days before you have a day off to yourself once again. However this Monday, I need to stay positive. This week is the week of the co-worker's baby shower. The shower isn't until Thursday (held at work at the end of the day), but I need a few days to prep myself for it. My goal this week is to survive the shower. No, not just survive, but actually be apart of the shower. I had planned to throw the shower with another co-worker, but couldn't do it. She had to take it on herself. However, I need to get through it and be OK with it. That is my goal. Knowing that if things had gone differently this shower would have been for the both of us. We both would have been celebrated, our bellies rubbed and possibly even compared. We both would have been overwhelmed by the love and support of our colleagues. But on Thursday it will just be her. I have to be okay and I know that sometime my time will come. I have to believe in that. It is all I have to hold on to.
Oh - and to go along with the goal of surviving the baby shower, I cannot allow myself to eat my way through it. That wont do me any good either.