Mondays - ugh. Hardest day of the week. Knowing you need to survive 5 whole working days before you have a day off to yourself once again. However this Monday, I need to stay positive. This week is the week of the co-worker's baby shower. The shower isn't until Thursday (held at work at the end of the day), but I need a few days to prep myself for it. My goal this week is to survive the shower. No, not just survive, but actually be apart of the shower. I had planned to throw the shower with another co-worker, but couldn't do it. She had to take it on herself. However, I need to get through it and be OK with it. That is my goal. Knowing that if things had gone differently this shower would have been for the both of us. We both would have been celebrated, our bellies rubbed and possibly even compared. We both would have been overwhelmed by the love and support of our colleagues. But on Thursday it will just be her. I have to be okay and I know that sometime my time will come. I have to believe in that. It is all I have to hold on to.
Oh - and to go along with the goal of surviving the baby shower, I cannot allow myself to eat my way through it. That wont do me any good either.
Hi Amanda. I have a "no baby shower" policy. I guess if it was a really good friend, I'd try to go for a bit. Good luck. It is so hard.
ReplyDeleteIs there an open bar at the shower? :)
ReplyDeleteJust try and grit your teeth. I find the more baby showers I go to, the more numb I get to them. Hang in there.
Good luck - I know that you will find it hard - but think about how you will feel when it's over.
ReplyDeleteICLW
Detour - I was going to skip the shower but realize how tasteless that would be. I need to go to this one.
ReplyDeleteHer Royal Fabulousness - it is held at the school I teach at...unfortunately no open bar :(
Hi Amanda, thanks fro your comment. Boy, you are in good company with so many of us understanding exactly the mix of emotions a baby shower brings up. Have you seen the movie Julie and Julia? I just saw it the other night and there is a scence where she finds out her sister is pregnant and bursts into tears of sorrow for herself whilst saying how happy she is and what great news it is. Man, that cut a little too close to my heart. I dissolved into tears. I am not sure that these feeling go away, but maybe over time, and hopefully with the addition of our own little ones (however they arrive) it can get easier.
ReplyDeleteBlessings
Chrissie x
Sorry to all the typos...yikes. Note to self: Proof read before hitting send! ha ha
ReplyDeleteI am sorry for your losses
ReplyDeleteHang in there and once you survive this celebrate in the inner strength you have found!!
Lots of hugs, the blogging community has your back!!
ICLW
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